My husband moved home to heaven 14 years ago, December 03, 1995, he was shot in an armed robbery. No, it is not recent but I still understand. This will sound like a hard answer but my please understand this truly helped me to not be angry with G-d. The Bible says that there is a day witch a man shall die, but it does not say which day nor at what age, just a day that we will. But the most wonderful truth is Yashua (Jesus) did take the sting out of death and Alex (my husband) is more alive today then he was while he was here on Earth. I have and will continue to pray for your comfort. Yes, I miss him the big things all the way to the stupid. For the first few years I would blame life, when it didn’t go my way on him for dyeing, then Jesus gave me the grace to see that was my way of avoiding life on life’s terms and not dealing with situations at hand. I will still talk to Alex at times although I deep down do not think he can hear me because he is in heaven where there is no pain or sorrow… so why would G-d allow him to hear my pain… I simply like talking to him… it mentally somehow makes me feel better. This is sooooo much, this issue, is like an onion, there is sooooo many layers. As time passes there will be so many more layers to work through than the initial loss. This I can say with certainty, beyond any showed of a doubt, time does not heal all wounds only G-d does! Run to Him not away. I have healed, I am healing, and I am whole again. What sucks (for lack of a better term) is I had to feel the loss, the pain. But just like how the disciples were with Yashua, in the boat, and He said lets go to the other side and the storm came in spite of their great fear He calmed the storm and they made it safely, I can tell you there is the other side and Yashua, Jesus only Jesus, will get you there… you will not feel this way forever!!!