God can use anything evil to bring about His goodness and love to us. He doesn't break our arms or make us sick to show His goodness to us. We would throw parents in jail for that kind of behavior to their children.
Where do we get that sense of morality from? From God of course. The heart and mind of man is not designed to trust in a being that would inflict harm in order to show his good to them afterward. It's diabolic.
Thank God that no matter what comes at us in life - that it can't touch who we are in Christ and all that He is to us. I wish you well my brother. It is God's will for you to be well.
God is not seeing our lives the way "we" see our lives. God sees our lives in the proper light of the complete truth. We can't see all that He sees., so when we go through stuff in life that to US is overwhelming..., like say a car wreck., God has not changed nor is His heart racing or His body hurting the way ours is.
Our minds are on overdrive at this point (no pun intended) and while we are being driven to the hospital we are totally engulfed in our thoughts about this situation. God is not. He is calm., loving., benevolent., graceful as usual.
He can take that car wreck and make something good come from it. He didn't cause it but He can calmly make it beautiful even. On our side of the situation., we've been taught something all together different in our fevered pitch way of seeing tragedy. We are human and very self aware. It takes us a life time to see life the way God does.