I do understand. I had been through about 5 religions before the Lord got hold of my life. Your first paragraph is very revealing showing that it is nothing more than another religion. You have never been born again and need to seek Him not religion... End.
So wait, I ask you if a Muslim converting to Christianity means they were never a genuine Muslim and asking that question alone means I was never saved? Are you kidding me? That's low, even for you.
I tried telling you about my faith. You asked me to tell you what Christ did for me, and I responded to you. I told you that if there is anything else you wanted me to explain to help you understand that I was a genuine believer, please ask, and I'll try to explain. But you dismiss me so easily on a whim I wonder if I'm wasting my time. It's obvious you have your mind made up no matter what I say.
See, you're continuously making the same mistake. I have mentioned this at least two other times before, so now I'll mention it a third time in hopes you'll finally catch on. You cannot use what I believe now to retroactively judge what I believed then. Back then, Christianity was reality to me. It was not just like any other religion, it was the one true religion. Jesus Christ was not just somebody I believed in. I loved God. I loved Christ. As a young boy I had recognized that Jesus was God and that He died on the cross for me so that I can be with Him when I die. I had asked Jesus to forgive me of my sins and to come inside my heart. Over the years, Jesus because my best friend. I loved God; I loved Jesus. I would sometimes cry at night when I prayed because I wanted so badly to seek His will and to walk in His ways. This was all reality to me. It was as real to me then as it is to you now.
What I believe to be reality now, does not change what I believed to be reality then, and it most definitely does not change the sincerity of those beliefs. I truly believed the Holy Spirit came inside my heart that day I devoted my life to Christ. Just because I no longer believe in the Holy Spirit, does not mean that I all of a sudden never believed in the Holy Spirit.
Your first paragraph is very revealing showing that it is nothing more than another religion. You have never been born again and need to seek Him not religion...
This is exactly what I'm talking about. I currently believe that Christianity is the same as any other religion, but I did not believe that when I was a Christian. Yet you're judging the genuinity of my former belief based off of my current belief. It makes absolutely no sense yet you keep on doing it.
Let me try to explain it to you a different way so you can maybe better see the folly in your reasoning. Remember the hypothetical Muslim who converted to Christianity. Imagine I interviewed him and it went somewhat like this:
Me: "Do you believe Jesus is God?"
Ex-Muslim (EM from now on): "Yes."
Me: "Do you believe Mohammed was a prophet of God?"
EM: "No."
Me: "Ah ha! You must have never been a true Muslim, because no true muslim would say that Mohammed was not a prophet of God. And no true Muslim would say that Jesus is God."
EM: "Wait a minute...those are things I believe now. When I was a Muslim, I didn't believe Jesus was God and I believed Mohammed was a prophet. You're judging the sincerity of my former beliefs based on my current beliefs, but that makes absolutely no sense. At the time, I truly believed these things. It was reality to me. Why are you having problems understanding that?"
I ask you the same question crossnote, why are you having problems understanding this?