Weren't you sure you had everything under control for you, before God dinked you?
As I said, I just wanted to know God was real. (Think about it. I'm asking God to make himself as real as an actor/singer on a stage? The guy on the stage was real. He wasn't Jesus though. He was an actor who could sing. I didn't even go for a high level for the word "real." lol) If that's not arrogance, I don't know what is.
I may be a weird person...but I always knew God was real from the time I was a child. I never questioned it. I told everyone I got saved when I was 5. My parents didn't even go to church at the time. My grandmother did, though. I cried and begged my parents to go to church every Sunday, and they had to take me to Sunday school. I memorized all of Psalms 23 to get a free Bible with my name on it. I started reading it at 5 (KJV) didn't understand all of it and I couldn't even read all of the words in it then, but I did get the message. Jesus died on the cross to save us, and all I or anyone else had to do was believe in him, give him my life, and trust in him. Did I actually get saved at 5, I don't know but probably not...but it did set a background for me.
When I became a teen...I wanted to go out and do it my own way. I still believed in Jesus so it sounds stupid that I would want to just go my own way (like the Prodigal son), but yeah, I knew what I was doing.... God had mercy on me though and called me and when he did I was belly up in the slop and darkness. I knew I could either take his hand and give my heart to him and let him save me, or I could keep on eating with the pigs. Sad thing is, I kept on eating with the pigs for a while and that was my choice not God's choice for my life. But He didn't make me come to him. He gave me the chance and it was up to me to accept it or not.
Now that was my experience with it, and like others mentioned we don't all have the same experience, but I do believe we all have a choice.
Seems to me wanting to know he was real was your first step, and then after he showed you he was real then you chose to come him. I know you don't see it that way so I really ain't trying to offend you here... just my thoughts on it.