Lovesong Poetry

My list:

What I'm looking for in a man..

my dream.

that's the the one.

i say that with a fragile heart.
because he can so easily break it.
so bad I would probably never recover,
but I would take that risk if
there was a chance it was true
that he felt the same..

my dream is the one
I'm looking for.

My dream.​

if you could just, hurry up
and crush my heart...

It's out there
sitting on every shard of glass,
every sharpened rusty nail.
under every foot including yours.

unless you pick it up
and dust it off.

or crush it till
it beats no more.







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It will be unrequited love when
he lets me go..

When he stops holding on to me.

When I stop dreaming.

when he stops loving me.

it will be unrequited love.

He's in denial ..

not me.

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it's simple.

he loves me,
i respond to the love.

This is my response to his
love for me.

perhaps it is half requited,
and not quite there.

i don't know what this is...

it's a prison for me
because I can't see.

i can only see with my heart,
thats all.

what else am I suppose to do?

just wait for him,
the games in his hands,
the rules are his,
he's blindfolded me,

I am just blindly groping about in the darkness.
looking for the pieces.

My father God has been my eyes
and he has been playing for me
in my blindness..

so that game would be
fair..​

it's a deception to think
i have to be with someone
in order to be complete.

my whole world surrounds God,
I am his.
He is my father.
I belong to God.

Why give myself over to someone with
whom I have to submit to?
When they don't see God the way I do.
that includes every man.
maybe I don't want anyone..

God is okay with me being alone.
He wants what I want.

i am not lonely,
i was chasing something I could not have.
someone who won't defend me nor
protect me when I need them.
Someone who is not there.

i have loved and now,
I don't want to do that
anymore.

i think I am done.
With love.

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that's all well and great...
you can shut up now Lovesong
you crazy freak!

everyone is getting irritated
at your writing and mooning over
some fantasy nobody really cares
to hear about.

stop writing
You pathetic scumbag.
No one cares.

just stop writing,
and move on with your life
get over it!

stop being so stupid.
get on with your life.

and don't come back
or I will personally delete you from this place.

*echoes*

This is my attempt
To scare myself away.

i think it worked..​

I love how they all love and worship you,
like you are this great wonderful person ..

When you are crushing and tormenting a single soul in
the world that nobody will ever care lived or died.

someone this world doesn't want.

you aren't great nor handsome nor good looking.

you are a hideous a-hole.

Who s---'s on me all the time!

Pardon me for not being Christian,
but I don't like this at all.

you were never that "wonderful" person you make yourself out to be..

...not to me..

the one person you claim to love,
you treat like garbage.

and you continue to put me through
tests
to prove my love.

leave me alone!

you a-hole! How dare you look at me!
get out of my life!

where were you when I needed you...

i needed you you and you weren't there...

I don't want you in any way shape or form..

You want love why don't you dive into your worshippers
and be consumed into their love.
you certainly got what you wanted.
You don't need me..
i ain't worth your time obviously.

i don't need anyone...

go go be with your big boobed tall blond
and leave me alone!



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