I recommend you read more apocrypha. . Your knowledge seems mostly in just the new testament. Christians shouldt be so narrow minded. Have you read the Book of Judas?
Until you start reading the real Bible, the canon, and understand it, you cannot even call yourself a Christian. All this esoteric knowledge is the occult.
And from the devil!
If you want to ask how I know, it is because many years ago, I believed in reincarnation. I was a young person, very naive and very open to every suggestion, every wind of change. My study of religions lead me to wrongly conclude that we are reincarnated after death.
Until then, I had been reading the Bible, and praying to Jesus. From that point, evil entered my soul. I started experimenting with nonsense like astrology and Ouija boards. I believed in telepathy, and gradually got drawn into drugs and drinking.
I turned my back on Jesus, and instead found delight in all the special knowledge I found, including Alice Bailey and the Ascended Masters of Theosophy. From there, it was all downhill. I tried to pull myself out of that occultic nightmare by reading various holy books, even though I did not believe in God anymore. My life grew more and more negative and black. I was desperate to know the truth! Desperate enough to believe anything anyone wrote.
But then, I realized I had not read the Bible. I started to read the New Testament, and I did not understand a single word. But God was faithful. He brought Christians into my life who testified to the glory of Jesus Christ, resurrected and sitting at the right hand of God.
Then, through their faithful witness, and a special man (now my husband) who told me I need to repent of my sins AND especially the occult, I met Jesus Christ. Then I understood the Bible and its sufficiency. I have been studying it for 35 years now, and it has never let me down.
DedZed, you do not need all this mystical revelation and lies! You need to know the living God and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He is risen from the dead, and one day believers will join him in eternity. You are not following Jesus Christ when you point people away from Jesus. You are following Satan and his minions, who have disguised themselves as angels of light.
My challenge to you is to read the Bible. Start with the New Testament. Forget the extra-biblical lies. God is waiting to meet you. He is wanting you to know the truth, that Jesus is the way, the truth and the life, and no one comes to the Father but by him.
Praying you find Jesus Christ, instead of this terrible, evil occultic practices and beliefs you have so easily bought into.