Yes, I have seen that we can often get to where we are not really believing what we are saying. Or that we are holding two opposing ideas in our mind as both being true and not seeing that we are doing this.
I agree that it is all through the power of the Spirit in us, through trusting, abiding. I even agree that it isn't complete perfection I'm aiming at. I am aiming at abiding more and more. But I do not agree with the idea that I can stop abiding and still claim a saved status. The very idea is preposterous to me and it feels like a mocking of God to me. I take to heart to take care that my heart does not become evil and unbelieving as with them in the desert, even though He saved them, because after He saved them, He became displeased with them because of their subsequent unbelief and refused to allow them to enter the rest He had prepared for them.
I agree that it is all through the power of the Spirit in us, through trusting, abiding. I even agree that it isn't complete perfection I'm aiming at. I am aiming at abiding more and more. But I do not agree with the idea that I can stop abiding and still claim a saved status. The very idea is preposterous to me and it feels like a mocking of God to me. I take to heart to take care that my heart does not become evil and unbelieving as with them in the desert, even though He saved them, because after He saved them, He became displeased with them because of their subsequent unbelief and refused to allow them to enter the rest He had prepared for them.