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Magenta

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sorry to hear that ๐Ÿ˜” there's not many people who truly recover from a loss like that, I hope she does tho.

It's can hit the older people a lot harder because they live for each other so much
more when they get older, knowing they have very little time left. It breaks my heart
She is still barely able to function, and has not worked since, even though she was working from home. Months earlier, they had just bought a new home an hour and a half's drive from where they had lived for many years together after marrying over 20 years ago (our home town). She has until next June to decide if she can continue that job, and she also has the option of returning to the job she had before that, which would require her to drive that 3 hours daily, so will not likely opt for that. She can hardly think about work at this point. The dog they'd had for many years passed the very same day, as she could not delay having little Lucy put down (her and her husband had previously discussed their imminent need to do so). She had been a cat person before that, but everyone loved little Lucy.

Funny story: as my mother lay on her hospital death bed and my twin brother kissed her, because he was a bit bristly from his beard and/or mustache, our mother asked if that was Lucy. LOL. That was in 2009. So Lucy was very old, but my brother-in-law had just turned 65. He was diagnosed as soon as he had noticeable symptoms, which my sister quickly became aware of as her husband became increasingly confused over the course of one week. It was quite traumatizing for my sister, partly because doctors realized there was nothing they could do for him after a third tumor appeared four days after his first scan showing only two. They sent him home where he died in bed eighteen days after being diagnosed.

Close to 2.5 years ago, my daughter's dad was only 65 when he passed of a massive brain hemorrhage.
He'd had a brain bleed two years before that also, and cracked his skull as well when he hit the pavement.
It took him a long time to recover from that and maybe he never really fully did.


Life is such a gift, and we never know how or when we are going to go. All the more reason
for people to turn to Jesus and believe in His great love for us, that we may escape the second
death and attain the life ever after by grace through faith in His shed righteous blood.


I best be about my day. I still have to wrap gifts! Thank you for your prayers, everybody .:love:

And if you could pray for my daughter also, as she is not a believer. Thank you!
 

Blain

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@Blain sent me a message to my old username thanking me with a kind message of how much he appreciated our friendship ๐Ÿ˜Š just last week

He's a warm kind person would nice to be hear from him today it would make my day ๐Ÿ˜‰
Your words tocuhed my heart and I needed it, I cannot begin to to explain all I had have to go throught ever since I stated that I was dead serious that I was after the real thing how I was done studying the word of God rather I wanted to prove it I speak on here how there doesn't have to be any seperation with God how he will literally move in with you and when he does he is not a mere God to pray to or have faith in he is real as any person but this has been at least a two year endevor I only know to speak my heart what you see is what you get and I have ever since the first thread I made coming back here only spoken what he placed on my heart in faith regardless of all the mockery all the accusations all the ttacks spoken of the wonder of his perspn I share everything I recieve from him but was only met mostly with oppoaition my health only got worse I have almost died seven times I have not even began to express all I have had to go thrpough because I decided I WAS AFTER THE KINGDOM AND i AM BRINGING IT HERE.

The kingdom is way way more than most realize it isn't what many think this is evident by how if you pay attentiopn to everyone online it isn't about the wonders of God and his kingdom it is about your knowledge of scripture your doctrine it is about you not him I do not use scripture lightly many think because I do not use use scripture with what I say that I am instantly discredited but hid word is holy sacred a treasure not a toy or to use so casually to make arguments or prove yourself right and anyone claiming to using it for truth I mean look at the bdf they don't care about truth they base it on their own knowledge what they percieve to be truth their views their understanding their studies yet as I have said many times before this system is the fruits of the devil

he knows more than anyone that to win a war you divide confuse and conquor yet it seems many do not take what I say or at least consider it instead they attack mock make false acussations calling me deluded a false prophet but I have experienced him in ways that I cannot express in words simply because there are no words to express it you cannot define the wonders the mystery that you even with all the IQ ib the word express I could tell you how real he is how many pray to him but only as someone in distance I sayt many times how he can and will move in with you but speaking these these things comes at a cost

Ever since I first decided to refuse anything less than the real thing ever since I discovered the wondewr of utter surrender throwing away whatever you thought you knew was truth y health my living situation my finincial issues have all taken to the worst I am an open book I tell things as they are I have saiud how many times I have almost died I spoke how even with all my health issues I still came on here sharing speaking and hopefully spreading the kingdom not for empathy but as a point that many who have the health who have the ability who have the capability but all they do is come online for the exact reasons that dusgust me

How everyone so casually uses his word as if it is just ink and paper how everyone uses it only to prove their own views and what they see as truth it infuriates me to be honests how little his word actually means to people

But yet because people cannat recognize someone who n has tasted and seeb who dared to go that far for the actual truth the real thing I am in a very dark place I often ask myself what was the point I feel like t down him and everyone else I have more than physical or spiritual problems suddenly everything life has to give as a punishment has befallen me and I cannot deal with it anymore it is to much I often times curl up in bed pretending I don't exist safe from any more pain or suffering just wanting with more than anything rest just rest


Many do not know what I gave up or what I had to go through because I could not accept this so called Christianity to refuse to accept any excuse or understanding it isn't enough for me either it is the real thing or nothing and if faith dictates then anything I said or spoke is only the tip of the iceburg

But no it's about doctrine it's about the scripture you know and if someone like me who comes along who dares to speak whp dares to defy tyhe norm this is what happens

I am not able to come online much anymore not just because of my health but also because what is the point?
\
As far as I have seen it was all pointless what difference was made the garden I have spoken of
I have to see the results all the while makes me feel like I failed him and everyone else and so now I have no hope my faith my belief my prayers all of them seem like garbage it doesn't matter and I hope for those who attacled me who called me delusional are happy because they won I am broken defeated I dare not even try anymore hope is a farce fake

How many times I have said words have power well it is proven I have lost my faith to beaten down and for those like who I will not mention right now well they got what they wanted They won I admit defeat people like resident alien who was from the start exactly this to me well I lose I admit defeated clearly I was a false prophet all talk just like they said and I dare not try anymore even if I did if all I get in return is more suffering more loss more of how life can just be so unfair syruggling to survive what reason do I have to believe that anything will work out at all that I can just have a somewhat decent life?

No I am done faith hope belief it's useless pointless I give up I need a miracle an actual miracle but I dare not even try anymore I am done they won I have nothing more in me
 
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Your words tocuhed my heart and I needed it, I cannot begin to to explain all I had have to go throught ever since I stated that I was dead serious that I was after the real thing how I was done studying the word of God rather I wanted to prove it I speak on here how there doesn't have to be any seperation with God how he will literally move in with you and when he does he is not a mere God to pray to or have faith in he is real as any person but this has been at least a two year endevor I only know to speak my heart what you see is what you get and I have ever since the first thread I made coming back here only spoken what he placed on my heart in faith regardless of all the mockery all the accusations all the ttacks spoken of the wonder of his perspn I share everything I recieve from him but was only met mostly with oppoaition my health only got worse I have almost died seven times I have not even began to express all I have had to go thrpough because I decided I WAS AFTER THE KINGDOM AND i AM BRINGING IT HERE.

The kingdom is way way more than most realize it isn't what many think this is evident by how if you pay attentiopn to everyone online it isn't about the wonders of God and his kingdom it is about your knowledge of scripture your doctrine it is about you not him I do not use scripture lightly many think because I do not use use scripture with what I say that I am instantly discredited but hid word is holy sacred a treasure not a toy or to use so casually to make arguments or prove yourself right and anyone claiming to using it for truth I mean look at the bdf they don't care about truth they base it on their own knowledge what they percieve to be truth their views their understanding their studies yet as I have said many times before this system is the fruits of the devil

he knows more than anyone that to win a war you divide confuse and conquor yet it seems many do not take what I say or at least consider it instead they attack mock make false acussations calling me deluded a false prophet but I have experienced him in ways that I cannot express in words simply because there are no words to express it you cannot define the wonders the mystery that you even with all the IQ ib the word express I could tell you how real he is how many pray to him but only as someone in distance I sayt many times how he can and will move in with you but speaking these these things comes at a cost

Ever since I first decided to refuse anything less than the real thing ever since I discovered the wondewr of utter surrender throwing away whatever you thought you knew was truth y health my living situation my finincial issues have all taken to the worst I am an open book I tell things as they are I have saiud how many times I have almost died I spoke how even with all my health issues I still came on here sharing speaking and hopefully spreading the kingdom not for empathy but as a point that many who have the health who have the ability who have the capability but all they do is come online for the exact reasons that dusgust me

How everyone so casually uses his word as if it is just ink and paper how everyone uses it only to prove their own views and what they see as truth it infuriates me to be honests how little his word actually means to people

But yet because people cannat recognize someone who n has tasted and seeb who dared to go that far for the actual truth the real thing I am in a very dark place I often ask myself what was the point I feel like t down him and everyone else I have more than physical or spiritual problems suddenly everything life has to give as a punishment has befallen me and I cannot deal with it anymore it is to much I often times curl up in bed pretending I don't exist safe from any more pain or suffering just wanting with more than anything rest just rest


Many do not know what I gave up or what I had to go through because I could not accept this so called Christianity to refuse to accept any excuse or understanding it isn't enough for me either it is the real thing or nothing and if faith dictates then anything I said or spoke is only the tip of the iceburg

But no it's about doctrine it's about the scripture you know and if someone like me who comes along who dares to speak whp dares to defy tyhe norm this is what happens

I am not able to come online much anymore not just because of my health but also because what is the point?
\
As far as I have seen it was all pointless what difference was made the garden I have spoken of
I have to see the results all the while makes me feel like I failed him and everyone else and so now I have no hope my faith my belief my prayers all of them seem like garbage it doesn't matter and I hope for those who attacled me who called me delusional are happy because they won I am broken defeated I dare not even try anymore hope is a farce fake

How many times I have said words have power well it is proven I have lost my faith to beaten down and for those like who I will not mention right now well they got what they wanted They won I admit defeat people like resident alien who was from the start exactly this to me well I lose I admit defeated clearly I was a false prophet all talk just like they said and I dare not try anymore even if I did if all I get in return is more suffering more loss more of how life can just be so unfair syruggling to survive what reason do I have to believe that anything will work out at all that I can just have a somewhat decent life?

No I am done faith hope belief it's useless pointless I give up I need a miracle an actual miracle but I dare not even try anymore I am done they won I have nothing more in me
My biggest and best Christmas wish would be that I hear from you more often,

The lord will strengthen you to talk to those who question your sincerely in such away you will actually walk right next to them with the lord, and a gentle breeze will take each and every insincere thought, and change it into to something that will make you spring up and bless those who are walking with you ๐Ÿ˜Š.

The water that you will sprinkle of your back will be plentiful friend.

The lord has been sheltering you, this is what he does when he hears his children's calls. When he hears those cries of how his children have been made to lose confidence, the lord takes you from that place and places you in his arms and says come on spring back.

Hey he doesn't let go unless you can walk away from the same place with confidence, this will always happen to you friend, as I know it always does.

I know how all your posts, how you've walked away and then come back with a will to let those who have not blessed this wonderful walk you have with our father, where you have tried to build there faith.

You'll will remain my closest friend in cc no matter what anyone says.

And those who say what they say. Well they will have another spring with them ๐Ÿ˜Š


Merry Christmas friend.
 
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@Blain I need your help, and I was hoping you have the strength to help out,

The lord has spoken he's told me many people have been broken,

He's asked me to ask you if you could find the strength help people struggling. But theese people don't realise they are.

He wants me to seek and find the weakness that lives within.

The only thing is you may get some remarks that will be hateful.

Are you strong enough to join me ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ˜Š
 

Blain

The Word Weaver
Aug 28, 2012
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@Blain I need your help, and I was hoping you have the strength to help out,

The lord has spoken he's told me many people have been broken,

He's asked me to ask you if you could find the strength help people struggling. But theese people don't realise they are.

He wants me to seek and find the weakness that lives within.

The only thing is you may get some remarks that will be hateful.

Are you strong enough to join me ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿ˜Š
you are amazing your actually listening to him I may be broken and defeated by my reason my resolve has never changed and yes you are correct many are unaware his truth most often times opposes what we think ir understand

If I can help at all I have the strength I only needed someone who knows him like I do and you clearly do you are such a huge miracle to me I can't do this on my own I am only a spark a quick flash what people take from it I have no say in but yes please lets work together I don't care if I have the strength or not I told him that I was dead serious that I wanted the kingdom and to bring it here I have tasted and seen for myself the real thing in a way that words canbnot express there simply is no tongue to describe him

I admit I feel I failed what results or fruits came from all I have spoken and I stand by it regardless of the attacks acussation the way ;life and the enemy has desatroyed me even to the point I am barely alive I used to love goping on my walks I would walk miles all the while speaking with him I find him in different ways my walks my showers being in bed it has a distinct flavor to it I connect to him in different ways like this but yes please please let me let me help I have been waiting for this
 
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you are amazing your actually listening to him I may be broken and defeated by my reason my resolve has never changed and yes you are correct many are unaware his truth most often times opposes what we think ir understand

If I can help at all I have the strength I only needed someone who knows him like I do and you clearly do you are such a huge miracle to me I can't do this on my own I am only a spark a quick flash what people take from it I have no say in but yes please lets work together I don't care if I have the strength or not I told him that I was dead serious that I wanted the kingdom and to bring it here I have tasted and seen for myself the real thing in a way that words canbnot express there simply is no tongue to describe him

I admit I feel I failed what results or fruits came from all I have spoken and I stand by it regardless of the attacks acussation the way ;life and the enemy has desatroyed me even to the point I am barely alive I used to love goping on my walks I would walk miles all the while speaking with him I find him in different ways my walks my showers being in bed it has a distinct flavor to it I connect to him in different ways like this but yes please please let me let me help I have been waiting for this
blain your words are like music to my ears.

What I love about you blain is how you always leap for joy when you hear the call and the lord speak.

I love how you get filled with passion and no I have no need to test your resolve lol

I just like to hear it repeated ๐Ÿ™‚

But I hope you noticed as.always I like to keep my secrets when talking well most of the time I do, I often speak in subtle reasons

There was a time when I had this great friend who would always ignore his brother's mistakes and he would always find a way to correct me without effecting my confidence

Well he helped me grow my faith first.
That friend is you blain ๐Ÿ™‚
 
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And that time was your last post lol

And the time before that and countless other times.

which that time was not just once @Blain but many many times , and that great friend still exists. ๐Ÿ™‚

As in the last post
 
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Seekingwisdom

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Thank you for sharing your process for creating your incredible art, Magenta! That application you are using looks like a lot of fun to play with, and the combination of scripture with your unique touches helps to bring the gospel more alive to all of us in this Christian community!

Shalom!

SF
Hi Magenta
Wishing you a blessed New Year 2024. Thanks for the many inspiring posts that you have shared on christianchat . I have seen some of them but there are many I have not yet viewed and plan to look at in the future. When you have the time please look at my post today on Bible Discussion forum, thread title "correcting errors" . The computer system has me linked in error to many posts with a like. The error in the system is that I have not even viewed the posts, so the system is deceptive in making people think I have viewed their post and commented. So I am now trying to go through and check the places where a like is linked to "seeking wisdom" on posts that I have not even viewed. It is challenging. I am telling you this because some were your posts. My name was tagged to them with a like and I had not yet viewed them. I will probably have to send an official email to christian chat for them to get to the source of the error and stop it. Hope you have a wonderful day