Hi dharma,
You are not alone in thinking the world came about due to a mixture of creation and
evolution, many people including Christians muse over this possibility at some point.
Then they have to decide themselves which they will believe in. It sounds as if
you have not made up your mind yet.
I think that is why any inclination towards evolution undermines the concept that God
even exists. Dabble in evolution on any level and it's not possible to believe any of the bible.
I don't know how much of the bible you have read but it is multi faceted in that it all
links together. It is a joy to trace through these links try it for yourself, try
doing a word or concept study and you will quickly see what I mean.
The other problem with the theory of evolution/creation mix is that is assumes
God set things going and now everything it ticking over automatically and no
longer under his control.
Its not! It is all in God's hands, here is just some of what the bible says:-
Genesis 8:20-22 NKJV
[20] Then Noah built an altar to the LORD, and took of every clean animal and of every
clean bird, and offered burnt offerings on the altar. [21] And the LORD smelled a soothing
aroma. Then the LORD said in His heart, "I will never again curse the ground for man's
sake, although the imagination of man's heart is evil from his youth; nor will I again
destroy every living thing as I have done. [22] "While the earth remains, Seedtime
and harvest, Cold and heat, Winter and summer, And day and night Shall not cease."
This shows God could make the world as we know it cease at any time! But He made a
covenant with Noah, Noah needed to be able to get on with his life without the worry of
another global disaster.
Then there is God's reply to Job below which clearly shows everything is in God's hands.
I think your concept of God and his ability is too small at the moment, praying for you
that one day you will realise just how awsome God is. We are ants on an ant hill
created by God.
Job 38:1,3-41 NKJV
[1] Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said: [3] Now prepare yourself
like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer Me. [4] "Where were you when
I laid the foundations of the earth? Tell Me, if you have understanding. [5] Who determined
its measurements? Surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it?
[6] To what were its foundations fastened? Or who laid its cornerstone, [7] When the
morning stars sang together, And all the sons of God shouted for joy? [8] "Or who shut
in the sea with doors, When it burst forth and issued from the womb; [9] When I made
the clouds its garment, And thick darkness its swaddling band; [10] When I fixed
My limit for it, And set bars and doors; [11] When I said, 'This far you may come,
but no farther, And here your proud waves must stop!'
[12] "Have you commanded the morning since your days began, And caused the dawn
to know its place, [13] That it might take hold of the ends of the earth, And the wicked
be shaken out of it? [14] It takes on form like clay under a seal, And stands out like a
garment. [15] From the wicked their light is withheld, And the upraised arm is broken.
[16] "Have you entered the springs of the sea? Or have you walked in search of the depths?
[17] Have the gates of death been revealed to you? Or have you seen the doors of the
shadow of death? [18] Have you comprehended the breadth of the earth? Tell Me, if you
know all this. [19] "Where is the way to the dwelling of light? And darkness, where is its
place, [20] That you may take it to its territory, That you may know the paths to its home?
[21] Do you know it, because you were born then, Or because the number of your days
is great? [22] "Have you entered the treasury of snow, Or have you seen the treasury of
hail, [23] Which I have reserved for the time of trouble, For the day of battle and war?
[24] By what way is light diffused, Or the east wind scattered over the earth? [25] "Who has
divided a channel for the overflowing water, Or a path for the thunderbolt, [26] To cause
it to rain on a land where there is no one, A wilderness in which there is no man;
[27] To satisfy the desolate waste, And cause to spring forth the growth of tender grass?
[28] Has the rain a father? Or who has begotten the drops of dew? [29] From whose
womb comes the ice? And the frost of heaven, who gives it birth? [30] The waters harden
like stone, And the surface of the deep is frozen. [31] "Can you bind the cluster of the
Pleiades, Or loose the belt of Orion? [32] Can you bring out Mazzaroth in its season?
Or can you guide the Great Bear with its cubs? [33] Do you know the ordinances of
the heavens? Can you set their dominion over the earth? [34] "Can you lift up your
voice to the clouds, That an abundance of water may cover you?
[35] Can you send out lightnings, that they may go, And say to you, 'Here we are!'?
[36] Who has put wisdom in the mind? Or who has given understanding to the heart?
[37] Who can number the clouds by wisdom? Or who can pour out the bottles of heaven,
[38] When the dust hardens in clumps, And the clods cling together? [39] "Can you
hunt the prey for the lion, Or satisfy the appetite of the young lions, [40] When they
crouch in their dens, Or lurk in their lairs to lie in wait? [41] Who provides food for
the raven, When its young ones cry to God, And wander about for lack of food?
Job 39:1-30 NKJV
[1] "Do you know the time when the wild mountain goats bear young? Or can you mark
when the deer gives birth? [2] Can you number the months that they fulfill? Or do you
know the time when they bear young? [3] They bow down, They bring forth their
young, They deliver their offspring. [4] Their young ones are healthy, They grow
strong with grain; They depart and do not return to them. [5] "Who set the wild donkey
free? Who loosed the bonds of the onager, [6] Whose home I have made the wilderness,
And the barren land his dwelling? [7] He scorns the tumult of the city; He does not heed
the shouts of the driver. [8] The range of the mountains is his pasture, And he searches
after every green thing.
[9] "Will the wild ox be willing to serve you? Will he bed by your manger? [10] Can you
bind the wild ox in the furrow with ropes? Or will he plow the valleys behind you?
[11] Will you trust him because his strength is great? Or will you leave your labor
to him? [12] Will you trust him to bring home your grain, And gather it to your
threshing floor? [13] "The wings of the ostrich wave proudly, But are her wings and
pinions like the kindly stork's? [14] For she leaves her eggs on the ground, And warms
them in the dust; [15] She forgets that a foot may crush them, Or that a wild beast
may break them. [16] She treats her young harshly, as though they were not hers;
Her labor is in vain, without concern, [17] Because God deprived her of wisdom,
And did not endow her with understanding. [18] When she lifts herself on high, She
scorns the horse and its rider.
[19] "Have you given the horse strength? Have you clothed his neck with thunder?
[20] Can you frighten him like a locust? His majestic snorting strikes terror
. [21] He paws in the valley, and rejoices in his strength; He gallops into the clash
of arms. [22] He mocks at fear, and is not frightened; Nor does he turn back from
the sword. [23] The quiver rattles against him, The glittering spear and javelin.
[24] He devours the distance with fierceness and rage; Nor does he come to a
halt because the trumpet has sounded. [25] At the blast of the trumpet he says,
'Aha!' He smells the battle from afar, The thunder of captains and shouting.
[26] "Does the hawk fly by your wisdom, And spread its wings toward the south?
[27] Does the eagle mount up at your command, And make its nest on high?
[28] On the rock it dwells and resides, On the crag of the rock and the stronghold.
[29] From there it spies out the prey; Its eyes observe from afar. [30] Its young
ones suck up blood; And where the slain are, there it is."
See also the last few chapters of Job following the above.