There are two experiences of the Holy Ghost. Neither have i yet received the experience of boldness to speak the Word in the face of persecution. "When He the Spirit of Truth comes, He will guide you into all Truth: for He shall not speak of Himself, but what He shall hear, that shall He speak and He will show you things to come."
Carried into His death to all that is not of God:
"Lord consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with boldness. Stretch out your hand to heal and perform signs and wonders through the name of your Holy Servant Jesus.' After they prayed the place where they were meeting was shaken and they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the Word of God with boldness, and the multitude of them that believed was of one heart and one soul."
These believers already received the Holy Spirit from the Apostles, and were praying for the anointing of boldness in the face of persecution: to receive power to stand firm. "Rejoice in the Lord your God: for He has given you the former rain moderately and He will cause to come down for you the rain, the former rain and the latter rain in the first month." In the example of Elisha who asked for a double portion of the Spirit of Elijah, "You asked a hard thing' said Elijah, 'If you see me when I am taken from you it will be yours, otherwise it will not." Elisha had to persevere through distractions on the journey, just as we learn to persevere to see the Lord in our situation. "I am with you always, even to the end of time." "I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long the world will not see Me anymore, but you will see Me. Because I Live, you will live also. On that day you will realize that I Am in My Father and you in Me, and I Am in you. Whoever has My commands and keeps them is the one who Loves Me. The ones who Love Me will be loved by My Father, and I too will Love them and reveal Myself to them."
His Spirit guides us to find the secret Ladder ascending to God along the road of solitude: to persevere and cease from ourselves is harsh in the beginning, seeming weary and never-ending in progress and as we learn not to lose sight of the Lord, becomes easy to find Him in everything. "Pay attention to how you hear. Everyone who does will be given more, but those who don't will lose the little they think they have." God is near when we acknowledge our poverty and need: He never forsakes us, we forsake Him and fall that we may learn to continually repent and turn our will to His will. Leave all your cares in His hand and consent to the Cross all that is not of God until temptations lose their hold.
Pray that you may enter into rest:
”Let us therefore fear, lest a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it. For unto us was the gospel preached as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it. For we which have believed do enter into rest.” Paul faced dying for the Faith several times and near the end of his life, was able to say, "I have fought a good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the Faith, now there is a crown of Life for me from the Righteous Judge and not for me only but for all who Love His appearing." The fellowship of His sufferings requires our whole heart. "It's no longer I that live but Christ that Lives in me." "He that is joined to the Lord becomes one Spirit with Him." "Let us go on to perfection, and this we will do if God permits." "What things were gain for me, those I counted loss for Christ. I count all things but loss for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things and consider them waste, that I may gain Christ, and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but through Faith in Christ, the righteousness that comes from God by Faith. That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being made conformed to His death; persevering that I may attain the resurrection of the dead."