Confession time: Sometimes, I really feel like I don't fit in here. Like, if CC was a big family, I feel like I'd be the very distant cousin that everyone is nice and polite too, but ultimately isn't on the inside. And not just CC; it's a feeling that follows me around everywhere. I really only have myself to blame; it's not as though I go out of my way to get to know people well, or share with people much about the goings-on in my own life. Not because I don't want to know people, or because I don't trust people; the anxious, nervous side of me says 1) Who are you to ask this person about their life, stop being such an invasive, nosy git and 2) No one cares about the goings-on in your life, so don't talk about yourself.
Now, there will surely be people here who will say, "Of course we care Skittles; of course you're part of the family" because this place is full of kind and lovely people. But there will always be that niggling, squeeby little monster living behind my ear, whispering, "You don't belong here".
On a lighter note, someone brought cookies to work today. So that's pretty phenomenal.