there's nothing you should be sorry about
you've shared some pretty deep thoughts, I for one have enjoyed reading through.
It reminds me of something my husbands spiritual father/mentor once shared but I can't for the life of me recall it all exactly (he's gone Home so I can't ask him) so I hesitate to share/mention b/c I really don't know/recall enough to make the point,
but it was about during pregnancy the woman's water (which breaks just before going into labor) the blood (newborns covered in blood) and the new life (the new born baby)
the way he shared it and shared a deeper meaning of it just left me speechless and in awe.
maybe someday down the road I will be able to recall and be able to share it better.