I am not saying i would not want to go to heaven, I am more stating that I do not understand how people would want to do the same thing for the rest of eternity. Eternity is hard to grasp because we have never experenced it our selfs. I do not have a relationship with christ. I have spent most of my life telling my self how much i hated him for things that happend in my life. I no longer hate god because i realize that people have free will and my anger was misplaced, but that does not really mean that i love god. This is the reason i feel i have a hard time grasping the concept of heaven. I just dont understand how to start loving god, or how to start a relationship with someone you do not know.
I was talking to my brother once about eternity (he is of a similar opinion as you). He also suggested it sounded pretty boring; that not knowing when you will die is what makes life exciting; "seeing how much one can do before one dies is the fun part", he says. "YOLO" as they say.
But what you and my brother are misunderstanding about eternity is that it doesn't mean "stasis". You see...we can NEVER be eternal because only God is eternal. No, we become immortal (i.e. everlasting; age-lasting) and we exist with God for eternity.
'Eternal' more so means "existing at all points of time (past, present, future) simultaneously, without beginning or end" and as a consequence one is "constant"; one doesn't change. This is why scripture says God doesn't change. While 'immortal' more so means "one will never die". Again we don't become eternal, but immortal. One who's immortal is still 'temporal' and so still exists one moment at a time so one still must experience life just like we experience it today. In other words, the only difference between a mortal life and an immortality one is a mortal's life will eventually end. So whatever makes life exciting now is still what makes life exciting when we're immortal, there's just no evil and no end to it.
So think of life like a roller coaster. A roller coaster is exciting because you don't know what twists and turns to expect...but life with death attached to it is like a roller coaster that's missing a piece of track at some point in the ride where you eventually must stop. Whereas everlasting life is like a roller coaster where new sections of track are being built faster than you can ride through them; twists, turns, drops, spins, things you never expected to experience...and the coaster doesn't stop! It's always new track...and each person's coaster is unique to them.
Next imagine your friends and family's own dynamic tracks interweaving with yours and each other - their cars linking to yours - so that you all experience the thrill together...each time someone imagines something new to experience new track is built for your coaster and vice versa. What makes life worth living in eternity is exactly what makes life worth living now; the creativity of people (only in eternity it will be in it's perfect form, with no evil, and always motivated to glorify God).
Just look at the marvels man's able to create now in this corrupt, fallen state (which are currently for his own glory)...can you imagine what wonders and what fun we'll be capable of when we're glorified...wonders which will ALWAYS be pleasing to our Father because we'll perfectly express is character just like Christ does!?
It's exciting!
1 Corinthians 2:9-10
However, as it is written: "What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived" -- the things God has prepared for those who love him. But God has revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searches all things, yea, the deep things of God.
