The april 8th prophetic eclipse

[Stan_the_Man]

I am trying to click on it as I assume it is a video but it doesn't do it I want to know what this cover up is but I don'y know what you mean

That's what an eclipse is, the moon is covering the sun for a few moments.

That's what the big cover up is.

There is nothing wrong with debates. Iron sharpens iron. Gnosticism leads people astray.

Actually, debate is something the reprobate do:

Romans 1:28-32
And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;
Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers,
Backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents,
Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful:
Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them.

Christians are called to proclaim the truth, not debate like the heatherns

No. Go back to the first century. Gnosticism means "hidden knowledge."

Yeah, all the calvinists think they have "hidden knowledge."

How do you pretend to know what is in my heart?

Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks

Luke 6:45
A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.

 

[Blain]

That's what an eclipse is, the moon is covering the sun for a few moments.

That's what the big cover up is.






Actually, debate is something the reprobate do:

Romans 1:28-32
And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;
Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers,
Backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents,
Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful:
Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them.

Christians are called to proclaim the truth, not debate like the heatherns






Yeah, all the calvinists think they have "hidden knowledge."






Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks

Luke 6:45
A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.

Oh I get it now I don't really get things like you wouldn't how many sexuall joke just went way over mt head even at the age of 23

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

Since are brother @Blain is partially blind I thought I would edit his spirit lead post. 😊. I believe its for the whole church.

I thought I would edit his post to @NightTwister


There are those who debate to learn with the intention of gaining wisdom from others, to grow and become closer to God.

To become stronger from the wisdom of others, but this requires the heart and mind of a student not a teacher.

Then there are those like you, who try to justify your arguments, with that exact scripture that has been used over and over again.

But not as a learning or growing aspect only to justify your petty arguments.

Only those who can admit they may be wrong will learn from those who are teachers, people who are unwilling to admit they may not understand they may be wrong will take this verse and create a community in Christ. Where as you try to use it to justify your arguments, not debates but arguments.

Then it is about what you want to believe, what you think is truth you will only cause more strife because your heart is not in the right place when your like this.


Question

In your debating how many have you brought closer to God and his kingdom.

How many hearts have been mended healed and soothed?

I have encountered so many damaged people because of this mindset.

You would be absolutely shocked how many are damaged by this thought process, and so many have used this exact verse to justify their arguments.

But when your like this you are unaware the damage it causes because it isn't about the truth or the kingdom it is about you.

By all means prove me wrong and speak of the people you have filled with life in your debates.

how many hurting misunderstood unheard souls have you brought to true life to the kingdom of God, because the no matter what you think of yourself


Or how many people have you made think he adores your treasures by expressing your love for him



Please don't even bother if you won't listen to him, his word flowing through me his spirit, if you won't listen to him and it is becomes about what you think,

What you believe, and yet you cannot hear and feel those in the spirit needing his real and unimaginable love

then don't try to justify what debates are it is just you not him not others only you. 😊

 

[NightTwister]

Yje spirit speaks to the spirit anyone can use scripture as they have for so lonf to align with what they think the cherry picking the interpretation the dmonination you stand by but this not jkust misusing it for ourselves it is absolutely disgusting a cxompletely claiming to treasure his word but it is beyond clear the devil knows the art of war better than anyone you confuse divide and conquor there is only one truth not many not divided not by where you stand
I am legally blind but am I really blind? is it that hard to see the tactics of the enmy? is the division with the body that undrrn? we take his word claiming to value it but then why all the divison why all the arguments and debates? seek the living word JJesus Chrust not as a distant person but he is with you he moves in he has shown himself in poerson in my room it sounds impossible sure but I am telling you he is the truth no matter how much you study the scriptures it is not the word of God

This is because if it was to you you would learn know him personally you wouldn't be scepticaal when I say he will move in with you phgisically you know him closer than family but no it is about scripture it is about what we think disguised as truth can you say he has come to you as real as anyone can you say he has come to your defence in the attacks of acutal demions knowing the fire and fear they have for him?

say what you will of me I asm flawed by all acountrs but don't you dare speak ogf abything less of him because that is when you will know my anger if you don't listen that is fine but is when you lessen him that I will not be kind you will know my anger say what you will believe what you want listen or xkb;tg listen mock me attack me but the second you have the neerve to speak of him but it is only you then yeah dpn't expect me to be kind and I needxed this correction in my jjporney I have been where ypu are the only difference is will you listen

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

Further more to all those becoming aggrieved with @Blain

He means well.

So pull ya socks up straighten yourselves up and listen 😉

Blain is a true brother.

Seek the lord before ye speak to blain as he is a true brother.

And God will not be pleased for treating a brother as a fool. 😊

 

[Stan_the_Man]

Oh I get it now I don't really get things like you wouldn't how many sexuall joke just went way over mt head even at the age of 23

Oh, this is a good man.

I'm having fun with this one, telling everyone that the eclipse next month is "just a big cover up!"

Some people are pretty sharp and know right off the joke is just talking about the moon covering the sun.

Others are kinda slow and they think biden and the CIA are messing around out in space or something.

Just tell them Trump does not support the eclipse cover up and mess with them

I don't do social media, but I hear some are having fun with this on spacebook and tweeter

 

[Blain]

Since are brother @Blain is partially blind I thought I would edit his spirit lead post. 😊. I believe its for the whole church.

I thought I would edit his post to @NightTwister


There are those who debate to learn with the intention of gaining wisdom from others, to grow and become closer to God.

To become stronger from the wisdom of others, but this requires the heart and mind of a student not a teacher.

Then there are those like you, who try to justify your arguments, with that exact scripture that has been used over and over again.

But not as a learning or growing aspect only to justify your petty arguments.

Only those who can admit they may be wrong will learn from those who are teachers, people who are unwilling to admit they may not understand they may be wrong will take this verse and create a community in Christ. Where as you try to use it to justify your arguments, not debates but arguments.

Then it is about what you want to believe, what you think is truth you will only cause more strife because your heart is not in the right place when your like this.


Question

In your debating how many have you brought closer to God and his kingdom.

How many hearts have been mended healed and soothed?

I have encountered so many damaged people because of this mindset.

You would be absolutely shocked how many are damaged by this thought process, and so many have used this exact verse to justify their arguments.

But when your like this you are unaware the damage it causes because it isn't about the truth or the kingdom it is about you.

By all means prove me wrong and speak of the people you have filled with life in your debates.

how many hurting misunderstood unheard souls have you brought to true life to the kingdom of God, because the no matter what you think of yourself


Or how many people have you made think he adores your treasures by expressing your love for him



Please don't even bother if you won't listen to him, his word flowing through me his spirit, if you won't listen to him and it is becomes about what you think,

What you believe, and yet you cannot hear and feel those in the spirit needing his real and unimaginable love

then don't try to justify what debates are it is just you not him not others only you. 😊

Thank you much I really do try but well I can only do ao much sometimes I just cannot type what I want to grammar punctiination it has never been my strong suite it just never mclicked with me but I have wanted for so long to share my poems on amazon but I am not fluent in grsammar and it rewuires a front image but I truly want to give what I have seeb abd gibestly I admit I need the extra income

it is so hard to afford anytrhing but more than that I know if I could get my poems out so many would be helped encouraged they would see his love the gardens I have visited the wonders that pnly he could show but sadly because of myy limitations I havew yet to put even one on amazon\\But there has to be a resason why I am a writer at heart why he speaks through me though writings but the unseen force that always plagues me will not let me do it I mean the things I could show it maes my heart leap inside ,e but I cannot do it it goes way over my head so as much as I want to
i cannot make it as a writer let alone assuming
I am a writer of hia apirit But writing is the only skill I have and I am only able to truly express myself in written form so surely he knew what he was doing but I am not able to do thid pn my own I don't know if I have said this before but I have brain damage twice in thhe sames spot the firts from my abuse parentz the second from the radiation due to cancer so sadly I cannot just do things like normal people

but even so I know it doean't matter what I say I will never recieve the help I need I have accepted this it has been more than clear but even so if I can give what I nwvwe gad if his kife the spark that makes your heart leap inside you if somehow all I have gpne thtpugh understanding real pain and suffering being unheard misunderstood that pain withing of ewanting toi be good enough to not struggle with self worth to just sugh with the love that you are more than worth it no mztter what ypu have dpne whyat anypne thinks of you you are just his child no sin no what you think or others just love his endearing child that ,akes his heart tickling his heart This is what such peop;e need sure maybe I will dies I am beyond underwheit I ;ove with mice I have a lower immune system than most but perhaps this was planned
i mean unless you go through it can you really understand what others are going through?

I admit perhaps I am to open and honest but I don't know how else to be believe me I am strong I am not above anyone else if anything I am under everyone else I have nothing to give except I am willing I am here and I am waiting and listening

 

[Blain]

Oh, this is a good man.

I'm having fun with this one, telling everyone that the eclipse next month is "just a big cover up!"

Some people are pretty sharp and know right off the joke is just talking about the moon covering the sun.

Others are kinda slow and they think biden and the CIA are messing around out in space or something.

Just tell them Trump does not support the eclipse cover up and mess with them

I don't do social media, but I hear some are having fun with this on spacebook and tweeter

Ah I see sadly I have no understanding of such thingd people who have spoken to me say have said I have this innocence of a child and honestly I have seen it within myself so for the most things will just fly over my head I am sorry about that

 

[Blain]

Oh, this is a good man.

I'm having fun with this one, telling everyone that the eclipse next month is "just a big cover up!"

Some people are pretty sharp and know right off the joke is just talking about the moon covering the sun.

Others are kinda slow and they think biden and the CIA are messing around out in space or something.

Just tell them Trump does not support the eclipse cover up and mess with them

I don't do social media, but I hear some are having fun with this on spacebook and tweeter

I just noticed you said I was a good man believe me I am by no means a man but perhaps he intended that if innocence ;eads one to understand and see things as how he said we are to be like the children who came to his lap maybe I am not as bad as I feel what if I was wrong about myself what if my niave and innocent nature is not weakness but something else? regardless after re reading your responce i have started to qonder if my weakness my everything I am not is actually not a weakness but a naturally affinity to him so either way thyank you so much

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

Thank you much I really do try.


Well I can only do so much sometimes.

I just cannot type what I want to at times as grammar punctuation has never been my strong suite.

It just never clicked with me.

I have wanted for so long to share my poems on amazon, but I am not fluent in grammars and it resources a front image but I truly want to give what I have seen and because of my health i need the extra income I haven't got


Its so hard to afford anything but more than that, I know if I could get my poems out, so many would be helped and encouraged.

They would see his love the gardens i have visited, the wonders that only he could show.

But sadly because of my limitations I have yet to put even one on amazon.

But there has to be a reason why I am a writer at heart, why he speaks through me, though writings, but the unseen force that always plagues me will not let me do it.

The things I could show makes my heart leap inside, but I cannot do it.

It ends up going way over my head, so as much as I want to I cannot make it as a writer let.


I am a writer of his spirit, But writing is the only skill I have, and I am only able to truly express myself in written form.

Surely God knew what he was doing,
but I am not able to do this on my own.

I don't know if I have said this before, but I have brain damage twice in the sames spot, the first from my abuse of my parents, the second from the radiation due to cancer, so sadly I cannot just do things like normal people.

but even so I know it doesn't matter what I say, I will never receive the help I need.

I have accepted this it has been more than clear, but even so if I can give what i have, the spark that makes your heart leap inside.

Like all I have gone through, understanding real pain and suffering.

Being unheard and misunderstood, that pain within of wanting to be good enough, to not struggle with self worth.

to just sigh with the love that you are more than worth it no matter what you have done, why anyone thinks of you.

You are just his child, no matter what you others think.

just love his endearing children, that makes God's heart heart happy.

This is what people need to do for sure.

maybe I will dies before I get the chance to do what I would love to.

My health is not good I am underweight with a low immune system than most but perhaps this was planned.


i mean unless you can go through it can you not really understand what others are going through?

I admit perhaps I am to open and honest, but I don't know how else to be believed, I am still strong in him tho but don't see myself above anyone else if anything I am under everyone else, I have nothing to give except I am willing I am here and I am waiting and listening

I've edited blains. post again,

As you can all see blains really does care for everyone of you 😊

Blain I'm sure things can improve.


I'll pm you soon.

 

[Blain]

I've edited blains. post again,

As you can all see blains really does care for everyone of you 😊

Blain I'm sure things can improve.


I'll pm you soon.

I really apreciate it it is very embarrising trying to say somethin but comr s out as something eird I have done evrything I can to stay strong until this poitn bgut I may not be able to krrp going honestly I never how lack of nutrituation can really affect you buy I know there is no hope for me for this trutst mr oy od o,pdffiblr nut at thr same timr even if I can only comre online sometimes as long as he uses me who cares if I am right or wrong I am willing that is all

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

I really appreciate it it is very embarrassing trying to say something.

It comes out as something weird sometimes.

I have done everything I can to stay strong until this point.

But I may not be able to keep going.

I lack of nutrition and it's effecting me.

There is not much hope for me but I'll still do my best when I come online as long as he uses me who cares if I am right or wrong I am willing that is all

I know things are tough for you friend. Just keep your spirit up.

He has used you many times 😊

And it was a nice discussion you raised here.

I'm going to be looking forward to the eclipse in April now.

They say when the heart is open to wonder it's more open to listening.

Some people i would imagine really can make a change, people also make resolutions on eclipses and promises to God. Perhaps an eclipse is also a time for recieving resolutions to.

It a shame this thread went downhill the way it did.

But keep your chin up anyway 😊

 

[ResidentAlien]

I'm not really buying the whole "doctrine leads to arguing and debating" idea; never have. When a person has God's word in their heart, and really understands it, it should lead to less arguing, not more. Neither do I buy the "iron sharpens iron" thing as an excuse for debating. A free exchange of ideas is one thing; but debating with sole purpose of winning and vanquishing you foes is never taught in scripture. Our purpose is to win people over, not drive them away. So, the scriptures are good; and sound doctrine is good. It's a misunderstanding of sound doctrine that leads people to debate endlessly and bludgeon people over the head with the Bible.

 

[Melach]

this is an opinion

its the correct opinion. you can write back to me on april 9th

 

[Blain]

its the correct opinion. you can write back to me on april 9th

Spril ninth will come and go whether something actually happens on the solar eclipse who know God is is very unpredictable that way that is something I love about him but it is a sign either way a sign points to something it is is rarely the initiator but he said in genesis what the sun moon and stars are for it doesn't need validation he has clearly spoken and shown it all throughout his word

it is a sign to listen to pay attention when he uses the heavens to speak that is when you know he is being serious

your opinion doesn't matter he is theone who uses the heavens to declare himself my opinion doesn't matter because I don't know I am just listening and waiting to see what he pukks from his sleeve

But the thing is we are so skeptical nowadays mistaking discernment with doubt but trust me he is going to do something I don't know what it is but I feel excitement for whatever it is I just know that we who are his who desire his heart more than water or breathing it is something to be excited about

 

[Blain]

I know things are tough for you friend. Just keep your spirit up.

He has used you many times 😊

And it was a nice discussion you raised here.

I'm going to be looking forward to the eclipse in April now.

They say when the heart is open to wonder it's more open to listening.

Some people i would imagine really can make a change, people also make resolutions on eclipses and promises to God. Perhaps an eclipse is also a time for recieving resolutions to.

It a shame this thread went downhill the way it did.

But keep your chin up anyway 😊

I am sorry I know I speak to much about what I am going through but I don't know any other way to be I don't know how to bury eveything and it isn't like you all need to be burdened with it but yes you are absolutely correct anyone can change that is how he works remember Psul? his story fascinates me if anyone would be called an antichrist before
jesus reached him it would be him but yet he became the most well known proclaimer of Christ he went through much more than anyone else for his cause for his kingdom so much so he coverted a prisonor guard

It isn't about how strong we it isn't about our knowledge of the scripture or if we ourselves are right all it requires to know his wonder is a heart that is willing and listening

his love will pour into such a heart they don't care of their understanding they don't care about how strong they are or what they are lacking they don't consider sin they only consider him they have this purity in them only what he says what he thinks matters

Can you imagine being sinless pure clean? letting go of the burden of everything you have done and will do everything you think you are lacking everything you consider wrong with you?

To just listen what he says of you that child like purity with him to just be


i think it would be like actually breathing for the first time so freeing so healed from eeverything inside us and around us heaven on earth you and him that bond that being in his lap even if you are still on this side of heaven

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

I am sorry I know I speak to much about what I am going through but I don't know any other way to be I don't know how to bury eveything and it isn't like you all need to be burdened with it but yes you are absolutely correct anyone can change that is how he works remember Psul? his story fascinates me if anyone would be called an antichrist before
jesus reached him it would be him but yet he became the most well known proclaimer of Christ he went through much more than anyone else for his cause for his kingdom so much so he coverted a prisonor guard

It isn't about how strong we it isn't about our knowledge of the scripture or if we ourselves are right all it requires to know his wonder is a heart that is willing and listening

his love will pour into such a heart they don't care of their understanding they don't care about how strong they are or what they are lacking they don't consider sin they only consider him they have this purity in them only what he says what he thinks matters

Can you imagine being sinless pure clean? letting go of the burden of everything you have done and will do everything you think you are lacking everything you consider wrong with you?

To just listen what he says of you that child like purity with him to just be


i think it would be like actually breathing for the first time so freeing so healed from eeverything inside us and around us heaven on earth you and him that bond that being in his lap even if you are still on this side of heaven

The thing is blain, being open has its good points,

But at the same time we can not face our enemy empty handed, we need people like yourself, with a strong enduring heart like yours around here.
Time and time again even when people have shown total disrespect you have still been willing to show kindness and overlook there disrespect.

You've been original, sympathetic, and caring, where many would have been the accept opposite.

I feal this has a lot to do with you getting saddened in the heart, taking people's saddened hearts and souls onboard, and taking them to heart.

It's ok if you can handle that, if you can grown a thicker skin, I hope you can, but I'm not sure if.your taking to much on at the moment.

Personaly I have adapted a new policy.

Where by I'm going to to see if people know the understanding of scripture before posting it.

How do I do this.


Well I seek God and he tells me the understanding of scripture


Then I post a question on the understanding of that understanding in that berse rather than the verse,


To see if people are willing to share the verse and understanding


Most have not been willing upto now and some have.

What I'm saying blain if your discussing, with people who are not willing to share the same understanding, or even acknowledge it, then why waste your time, with such people there just going to abuse you.

What I'm saying is, you post the verse and they mock the understanding

So you ask them if they can see the verse and the understanding in such away you don't spill the beans, but make it that easy that a child could see it.

I've since come to realise just how ignorant people are around here since adapting this policy.

Remember Jesus said don't cast your pearl to pigs


Well you need to find out if there a pearl or a pig first.

As many pigs are here blain

But anyhow brother on a better note

I will share something much nicer with you 😊


Yes I know the story of Paul, a hardened person to his beliefs like all the others at that time.

There was some one chosen by the the pharisees to be an executioner of blasphemy.

Which also meant charging Christians with blasphemy.

But yet somehow his heart was changed.

There's another a fitting story like this to.

Take the sons of Jacob, they all did bad things, and none of them really should have been worthy of being chosen to bring Jesus into the world.

But yet Judha, who had done bad things and was the fourth born son, was chosen to be the bloodline that would give birth to Jesus further on.

The message is obvious, that there is hope for everyone that someone unworthy as Judha can be chosen than anyone can.

Then we have to look at what Jesus did. He atoned the blood of mankind.

Which more than means everyone is worth it.

 

[Thunderrr-mental]

its the correct opinion. you can write back to me on april 9th

your personal opinions and experiences of an eclipse,.

Doesn't make your opinion correct.

God knows all the stars by name.

Now a star is a sun.

May I ask do stars give signs

 

[Stan_the_Man]

I just noticed you said I was a good man

I mean to say "Oh, this is a good one man" referring to the joke about calling the eclipse a big cover up.

When a person has God's word in their heart, and really understands it, it should lead to less arguing, not more

The problem starts when the person with God's Word in his heart shares God's Word with those that have been taught religious bunk, then the religious bunk people want to argue and the guys with God's Word in his heart wants to further explain the things of God and the religious bunk people's demons make them all mad and before long there's a big tumult going on.

In the end the person with God's Word in his heart has to do what the Lord does with the religious bunk people which is to let them continue believing their error and ignore them unless they turn from their error. It's all that can be done really when people get their understanding from false teachers in these last days where many have come to deceive many (Matthew 24:4,5)

its the correct opinion. you can write back to me on april 9th

Then you'll know this eclipse was just a big cover up!

 

[Blain]

The thing is blain, being open has its good points,

But at the same time we can not face our enemy empty handed, we need people like yourself, with a strong enduring heart like yours around here.
Time and time again even when people have shown total disrespect you have still been willing to show kindness and overlook there disrespect.

You've been original, sympathetic, and caring, where many would have been the accept opposite.

I feal this has a lot to do with you getting saddened in the heart, taking people's saddened hearts and souls onboard, and taking them to heart.

It's ok if you can handle that, if you can grown a thicker skin, I hope you can, but I'm not sure if.your taking to much on at the moment.

Personaly I have adapted a new policy.

Where by I'm going to to see if people know the understanding of scripture before posting it.

How do I do this.


Well I seek God and he tells me the understanding of scripture


Then I post a question on the understanding of that understanding in that berse rather than the verse,


To see if people are willing to share the verse and understanding


Most have not been willing upto now and some have.

What I'm saying blain if your discussing, with people who are not willing to share the same understanding, or even acknowledge it, then why waste your time, with such people there just going to abuse you.

What I'm saying is, you post the verse and they mock the understanding

So you ask them if they can see the verse and the understanding in such away you don't spill the beans, but make it that easy that a child could see it.

I've since come to realise just how ignorant people are around here since adapting this policy.

Remember Jesus said don't cast your pearl to pigs


Well you need to find out if there a pearl or a pig first.

As many pigs are here blain

But anyhow brother on a better note

I will share something much nicer with you 😊


Yes I know the story of Paul, a hardened person to his beliefs like all the others at that time.

There was some one chosen by the the pharisees to be an executioner of blasphemy.

Which also meant charging Christians with blasphemy.

But yet somehow his heart was changed.

There's another a fitting story like this to.

Take the sons of Jacob, they all did bad things, and none of them really should have been worthy of being chosen to bring Jesus into the world.

But yet Judha, who had done bad things and was the fourth born son, was chosen to be the bloodline that would give birth to Jesus further on.

The message is obvious, that there is hope for everyone that someone unworthy as Judha can be chosen than anyone can.

Then we have to look at what Jesus did. He atoned the blood of mankind.

Which more than means everyone is worth it.

Bless you my friend, personally I found that more than anything pain suffering sorrow being unheard connects people to Christ more than anything it may be why I have gone through all I have from birth love often times is rare so pain and suffering seems to be what would keep us from him to bring us to him.

Your understanding of scripture is clearly God god given don't forget the first time I met you you said something that was so beautiful to me to me you said at first you you took it like everyone else but waited on him listened and a lightbulb went off in you and you saw what spirit I was speaking by.

it is such a rare thing to hear that that willingness to listen to him first before you decide and yes perhaps I take on to much I just know when I am able when he gives me strenthg to speak on here which you wouldn't think would be that hard but there is forces unseen I just want him to use me while I can be used and just last night night something happened wityh him and I

I was in bed not feeling well but my heart was finally free for what seems lkike years.
His heart and mine spoke to each other the absolute love endearment affection for each other was so deep I was in happy tears you know when I first saved I made only one condition with him that I could have him that we would have a love and bond that no one has ever had with him not even those already there with him

I wanted so bad last night to be in my fathers lap and gently hold his face to pour everything I feel inside for him that words could never do justice the deep love so deep the longing to make him mine and mine alone the endearing childlike heart I have for him it was then I realized this is why I was created

He made for himself a child who adores and loves him so deeply to hold him and all they want is him someone who would treasure him that deeply it was a time with him I needed desperately I was desperate for him I held my body so tight it hurt because I just wanted to embrace him that badly to see that smile of his to hear his laughter just one more time.

then I had a dream so real I had no clue I was dreaming I cannot even explain it I don't know how but I was in another realm another wporld I saw planets universes and it was all just a speck a tiny grain of sand.

I even saw a cloud in the form of a kitten and yelled kitty and clung to the cloud and rode it through the dream I love cats I have not been able to get one for years but the child in me just yelled excitedly kitty and clung to it I went places I went to others homers I saw and met people I had conversations with them even this one little girl I met begged me to visit again she maybe six years old.

But something is going on he is doing something as I don't have dreams from him often but whgen I do I mean I don't know how to explain them