I don't really care about the sin issue that you and Ken like to dwell on. That is not my issue any more. I found out there was nothing I could do about it anyway.
The only thing I can do is stop looking at it and look to the Lord Jesus Christ.
The only thing I can do is stop looking at it and look to the Lord Jesus Christ.
But what are you actually talking about?
Imagine if I describe myself as a static object in time and space. I am what I am. I have a behaviour I do not like. Take feeling hungry. No matter how hard I try, I still get hungry. There is no effort I could put in to change this reality, because it is part of having a body and being alive. I can mitigate hunger by eating regularly, controlling my energy and food needs, so the effect of hunger etc can be changed and managed. But if I want to change the aspect I do not like I have to first understand what it is and where I want to get to.
Sin is no different. Sin at its root has hurt, bitterness, revenge, self worth, love and hate all wrapped up with it.
It does not exist in isolation with a squeaky clean life except for a small series of problems.
So Grandpa I do not recognise your failure or understand what you could not overcome. This is not my experience.
In Jesus there is everything we can do to deal with sin, self pity etc. Jesus is the fountain of life, a refreshing stream, a balm to the deepest wounds, an answer to those times of real loneliness. Maybe you have never been properly close to anyone, or felt the touch of empathy, or know the limits of caring and the point of respecting another.
But to me, your position is abdication of victory or the cross for a belief in the pure spiritual is the only hope, which is essentially gnosticism.
So we will never agree, because you have given up the path Ken and I believe in and experience.