Hey there, I am so sorry that you had such a horrible experience with the CRU. I too have had my fair share of bad experiences with Christian based groups. I have social anxiety and its very difficult for me to open up to people and fit in. If you cannot find any churches you like, then maybe you can find a bible study in the area? I have had better luck with bible study groups because they are small and the people are all there to learn about the word of God. Best of luck to you. Again, I am so sorry about your experience. Please pray that God brings you to some good Christian people. Let Him guide you.