I have been depressed most of my life and it seems like I get worse everytime. God says we are suppose to hate the world and I literally hate it with a passion..world is so bad..and my life is miserable. I just want it to all end...im sick and tired of putting this face that i am happy but im not ...i sick and tired of being strong when deep down i am broken. I am unmotivated to do anything at all. I always ask God for strength and motivation for what God has called me to do and to continue on His path but it seems like I'm in the same state. I've been praying to God ever since I was a little girl to bring me out of it..but I'm still going through the same problems with many more things added and more pain piling through and i just go through the same cycle try to be strong and try to be happy but I'm sick of "trying" . I know happiness isn't everything ...all I want is Jesus to hug me and comfort me in which I cry out to him all the time why do I feel like this still? Like Hes not there . I don't want nothing else ..honestly ask Him that He can take everything away from me I just want to be sane through His love. Btw I want to seek help but God told me nobody can help me but God himself. See I'm called to be a psychiatrist but I can't even help myself.
You feel the way you do because you have no direction to go. You are like standing in a desert and have no ideal which way to go. Every direction looks the same to you. You would rather just God tell you "Go this way" And you are more than willing to obey what He tells you. The problem is He is not telling you which direction, you feel lost, you feel confused, you feel like He is not hearing your plea for help. He is silent, and now your thinking maybe He doesn't care enough to lead you. And instead of choosing a direction you are taking thought to just sit down and wait for the buzzards to come and pick the flesh off your bones, you just don't care.
Snap out of it, the Matrix has you.
You say
I always ask God for strength and motivation for what God has called me to do and to continue on His path
So you pray to God to continue on His path? Do you go to Church? Do you attend a Bible study? Do you read His Word Daily? Do you study His Word? You pray to God to continue on His Path but do you do those things that are on His Path?
You do not know which direction to go, because the Spirit of Truth in you is not strong enough to reveal to you which direction to go. Jesus said "eat me" and Jesus is the Word. The more you read and study Scriptures the more your spirit is being fed, the more your spirit is being fed the stronger your spirit gets. And then one day like lightning you read a verse that you have read a hundred times before and BAM!!!!! The understanding of that verse floods into your mind. It was only at that point your spirit was strong enough to reveal to you the meaning of that verse.
You want to know what direction God wants you to go, then first feed your Spirit. Read the Word, Study the Word, go to a Bible Study, go to Church to hear the Word preached, live and eat the Word of God, and then God most assuredly will reveal to you what He wants you to do with your life for Him.
But as long as the matrix has you, it will keep you down and out, confused, and thinking about ending it all. Jesus is LIFE. Jesus is the Word. i have read the Word of God front to back over 80 times in my life, and to this day the Holy Spirit is still teaching me things concerning the Word. Wake up, get into the Word of God, feed your Spirit.
You would not go one day without feeding your flesh food, Why would you go one day without feeding your spirit food, which is the Word of God? Read it, study it, and then see if God does not give you a mission, a goal, a direction.
Those who draw close to God, are those that God will draw close to.
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††† In His Holy and Precious Name, Jesus Christ †††
DiscipleDave
