I have no idea what I'm doing.
I'm so out of place.
Hi,
In Him we live, and move and have our being.. That said, i can say 'life' doesnt seem very fair really, for a long time. But i take heart because i know our God is both loving and just. Once or twice, i told abt having really terror teachers in a row in grade school, wc gave me trauma. As i'm a younger child and rather behaved, my parents probably mostly thought i was ok=), altho they did see i struggled esp going to a distant high school, where God was with me thru it all.
Some (many?) people seem to think blessings are mostly what we see and touch still, and materially speaking, i dont have much to my name. Our parents worked hard to leave legacy to my sibs and me in the form of education and real property.. but we were not rich in the sense that we could eat out (we barely did as i was growing up), we could travel much (well they did, not me), we have great or good paying jobs (mine isnt regular), we have many friends and are popular at the gates (they do too, perhaps coz my parents knew many of my sibs' friends and vice versa, and i didnt quite get to the point where i could meet and interact w/ many of theirs incl. chancellors, directors, etc. esp coz we moved and were lost in circulation. But ive always strived to count my blessings, my family in Christ and my own family, events, even trials when i could praise and thank our Lord. We dont go hungry and naked, not seriously ill, have no outstanding loans, are able to share, help or encourage others here and there, and live simply but rejoicing in the Lord when i dont complain, grudge others or i learn to forgive along the way. We're free to sing each day and tell others abt God's faithfulness and love.. if we will! Thankful i'm continuing to learn to bless our Lord whether He gives or takes, when the grape doesnt blossom, or the fig tree does not bear fruit.