FIRST I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT I TYP IN BIG LETTERS BECAUSE OF MY EYE PROBLEM ... SECOND I AM NOT A GOOD SPELLER ... MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE BEEN MARIED FOR 44 YEARS AND HAVE TO GREAT KIDS ... I WAS MARRIED TWICE BEFOR WITHE 10 CHILDREN .. I HAD 10 CHILDREN AT THE AGE OF 29 ... I WAS A SINGLE MOM FOR 8 YEARS WITH MY CHILDREN .. THEN I MARRIED A HIGHT SCHOOL TEACHER WHO DID NOT DRINK SMOKE SWEAR OR SLEEP AROUND ONLY ON THE COMPUTER .. HE HAS HAD SO MANY AFFAIRS ON THE COMPUTER ... I T HAS TAKEN SOMETHING AWAY FROM OUR MARRIG ONLY GOD CAN REPLACE .. THE HARDEST THING ABOUT IT IS NOT HATE .. I DONT WANT TO HAVTE ANYONE ... WE ARE BOTH BORN AGAN CHRISTIANS AND I KNOW THAT PHYSICALLY HAS NEVER BEEN WITH ANYONE ELATS HE HAS A HEALTH PROBLEM AND CANT DO ANYTHING EVEN WITH PILLS ... BUT THAT DOSE NOT MAKE IT OK BECAUSE HES ONLY DOING IT ON THE COMPUTER .. HE TELLS MY I AM A PROPVERES 31 WIFE ... AND GOD IS ALWAYS WITH ME .. JE TALKS TO THIS GIRL ALL THE TIME EVERY DAY .. IT IS SO HARD TO FEEL LOVE FOR HIM ... TELL ME PLEASE HOW CAN I DO THAT ... I LOVE GOD WITH ALLOF MY HEART ...