Walking through an aisle of dusty cob-web wearing books, I find myself wondering about the world closing in.
But then in faith I look, while seeking for my answer, and watching in disgrace, I scour the literary labyrinth's hall for my longed escape.
I can pretend. I can distract. I can self-help. I can delay. I can learn to act, and can read about a million different ways to pray.
I feel smaller, though the space confines, smarter even though the walls articulate better than I,
And the room seems brighter when colorized by imagination caught on papers and, gulp, plastics.
But this "cave of wonders," more daring though accessible than to Aladdin, it is darkened by my shadows. And I can hardly read.
Not knowing where to turn, and mesmerized... I start to sing. And immediately following there is a prayer on my lips.
And it is not out of haste, nor reaching for a hidden gem. But it is from a kid seeking someone he trusts.
To my God, I reach. And he guides me to the Father's ongoing blessing. I find what I was needing. Himself.
O, and the book I keep seeking, in disorganized abyss. In His time, so I believe, He'll show me it.
This random reflection is after going to a second-hand book store, when my work unexpectedly had called me out for the day.
Prior to running across or intentionally planning to visit a book store, I found myself asking for prayer about a business book that would teach me about "LLC." Well, I was not finding a book that popped out until I decided to ask the Lord. "God, it would be really cool if I could find ________!!! You've got be kidding. Thanks, that was fast." Yes, just as I was to finish my sentence of lackadaisical though intentional prayer, I saw the title "How to start an LLC" (or something like that).
People will chalk this up to serendipity or psychological, but I praise God for His Spirit. I praise God that He does hear when we cry.
And that He knows our deeper needs, but He also seems to care about those fickle wants.
Still, life can be dusty and I do seek for His Continued Provision, Himself.
He is All I Need.
"Thanks' God"
In Jesus' name,
Amen.