I'd like your thoughts on my dilemma; I've been praying, but God seems to be vague with His instructions lately. (Maybe He's making me humble myself on the chat forum first?)
I'm a 33 yr old female, who has been in a relationship with a wonderful 29 yr old Christian man for the past year and a half. It's almost eerie how well we get along, plus he has a great job, a great family, and my friends love him. He would swim through sharks for me -- I trust him completely.
We're both kinda awkward when discussing the idea of marriage; he's always been painfully shy around women, and I finally gave up on handling relationships myself and told God to take over. We seem to have this "if it ain't broke, don't fix it" policy toward our relationship.
HOWEVER...as I said before, I am 33. Though I can't imagine it right now, I might want to have a child one day. The risk for pregnancy complications goes up considerably after age 35, but I'd like to get used to being married before I add the stress of a child to the mix. Meaning, I don't have a lot of time left! I feel if I press the issue, he'll propose, but here's where my problem comes in... I'm not very physically attracted to him. He's cute, don't get me wrong, but he just has no clue about what interests women. I love him very much, though; I can't imagine living life without him.
But for his sake, he deserves a woman who is "hot" for him. (heck, he's almost 30 and has never had a girlfriend besides me!) He also could have a woman who is a lot younger than me, who could produce a whole litter of kids to play with in the backyard. I love him, and I want what's best for him. I also want to be happy myself. I keep praying about it, but I'm still conflicted. I thought I would ask for advice here while I'm waiting on God to give me some clarity on whether to press the issue of marriage. Thoughts? (sorry for the novel)