Yes I tend to worry about it. Just got saved this summer, and the people in my church are some of the friendliest I've been around in many years. The factories I worked in had some very nasty people in them, I tried to fit with them but always failed miserably, despite being a nice, decent looking man. I came from a decent family, but the women I dated always wanted to play head games with me, but not take me seriously. Maybe because I'm only 5'6", always seem to get disrespected for that.
Married my wife at 30yo, she was 22, and had two boys from a previous marriage. Their dad taught them to be crappy to me, so I would leave and he could come back. Her sister and in-law were older, and were the "pride" of the family, they let me know where I stood. After having two miscarriages, we had a daughter who was healthy. As soon as we found out she was a healthy baby (4 mo. in womb) that's when things changed. Her sis and coworkers wanted her to play on me, so she did. So lots of heartache for me while I kept the marriage alive for my daughter's sake. Had a stroke @ the age of 44, my girl was seven. Now, after five years of bankruptcy (my disability did everything they could to get out of paying me, but with my Mom's help we got the full two years. Wife got new friends, more evil than ever, my divorce should be final next week. I can't wait! But I am scared...I'm afraid I won't find a decent woman. The effects of my stroke are gone now, finally. But women seem so very picky nowadays, and I am very good looking and nice, but short. So I plan on working out and being the absolute best I can be, maybe a truly good woman will value me.
