I am Waning to be quite honest....almost my whole life I have been on fire for God and was passionately trying to grow deeper in my relationship with Him. Over the last 6 months though, I have been knocked down so much, and with each time, it became harder to get back up. I know God loves me, I know He's there...I just don't feel Him. I feel God has always put me through so much because I have always been so strong and He knows that. I don't want to be strong anymore, I have no energy left. I don't know how to get back. I have made so many mistakes in the past 6 months alone. I'm so ashamed and honestly don't know what my purpose is here on this earth while I live. I'm not looking for pity or sympathy, just needed to vent I guess. Don't have a lot of people to talk to. I can guess all the responses I will get to this like "hold on" and "have faith" and "seek Christ more". I know all that, truly I do. Maybe I've given up I don't know. I don't even know what would help me. Just when I think I'm okay, something else hits me. Satan knows how to get me the best. And I am so empty, I can't fight back anymore.