I kinda feel lost right now. I am working again for the first time in 15 yrs. It pays the bills. After what me and the kids went through and all God has done. The job seems so empty. I feel like I am wasting time. Like I should know what I am to be doing, but I don't. I was asked to speak at a couple of groups, but that's not me, was told write a book, but that is not me. I am a, (don't let your right hand know what the left is doing kind of person). I don't like the spot light. I have no clue what it is I am suppose to be doing.