In need of prayer..I know that Im probably going against the rules..

wanting2believe · May 26, 2012

well today is my bday im 23 now.. and honestly today Ive been feeling soo down.

I beg of you brothers and sisters to pray for me. My heart is longing or love and right now I feel so weak and powerless I pray but I feel its futile and I know that probably cancels out my prayer. I beg of you please brothers and sisters pray right now, if God does not hear my voice because my sins and doubt blocks my voice I beg of you who are closer to God to please pray for me.. I just want to be loved.. I have this big whole in my self that nothing seems to fill it up.. it eats me away.. and I feel like Im going to go crazy and loose control and start to hurt myself again. I tell this to God but I feel nothing and so thats why I have to beg for crumbs from believers like you.. Please brothers and sisters.. I also pray that I can come close to God and feel God and feel the holy spirit and finally be like you guys who are rocks and are sustain by God.. It is not easy to feel so lost and lonely and left out.. I feel alone in the world and with God.. I ask this from my heart since Im at the edge. I know God is first and Im trying to make him first.. but I feel nothing nothing and its drving me crazy.. I beg of you please.

Uriel.

Snackersmom · May 26, 2012

Hi Uriel, I'll definitely pray for you. Not trying to be nosy, but have you asked Jesus to help you make Him first in your life? Because, without His help, that's a really hard thing to do, I would say probably impossible

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P.S. congrats on year number 23!

wanting2believe · May 26, 2012

i have :/ ive said it prayed it so many times

GreenNnice · May 26, 2012

wanting2believe said:

Happy birthday, Uriel, you are young in life, have a good sense of dress, and, they may say, 'Clothes make the man,' --and, your shirt with design on it is casually sharp--but you're sunglasses MAKE you a seriously handsome gent. Can I say are those Vuarnet's? Anyway, brother, you are blessed by God who made you from year 0 to today, 23, with an ability to understand the nuances of style. God wants to.use your style ( not speaking just 'dress' here) to reach others for Him.....

Wouldn't that be exciting, telling others how you kept seeking and seeking for God to make Himself real and then it happened, (you speaking, Uriel, ' I realized that ALL this anxiety, unrest, pain, would be gone IF I could just turn my life over to Him...

And, so, I went up to the church altar and I repented every last thing I'd done in past and I just felt this like overflowing quietness and loosing of what was binding me. I was His I knew, beyond a shadow of any doubt. I asked to receive His Holy Spirit, thar same Spirit of God that moved over the waters in the beginning of all time. I wanted THAT ! I ASKED for that ! I asked for That ! For that That was Him, His Spirit I received !! Holy Spirit fire to guide me, change me more to His goodness, forevermore on Earth before I then reap so much blessing all infinity of time in Heaven .'

Snackersmom said:

Snackersmom cares for you, Uriel, that's someone who could be doing other things now this weekend but she is here, and, others, too, in the midst of Cartoon and MaxPower entertaining, speaking things sillily, stopped and let you be centerpiece in chat room earlier today ( I just listened, I was not in room, I never rarely go chat, the Lord leads). The power of God is great, one must have faith to believe the Holy Spirit power in you, my friend, and, He is with you the moment you believe in Him and want to fully, wholly receive His presence. MaxPower prayed for you, too.

So many are praying for you, and, prayer in itself is mighty powerful and changing, but, with Max's prayer, snackersmom telling you to more proactively seek God (don't just 'try and make God first', as you said, instead 'ask and make' God first. You are so on the right path, Uriel. Are you going to a church? Are you taking notes on the pastor's sermons? Are you immersing yourself in wanting to do good God things for your life? Don't think about bad, think only of God's goodness. God will be all good to you, why do you even say to.think bad, for that thinking pushes God away and Satan thrives on 'bad.' Don't give Satan the time of day ! And, at night, in darkness, call on God through reading His word, reading good book on missionary girl's life waiting for God's guy for her (Passion & Purity by Elizabeth Elliott) , this story will show you that IF you CHOOSE to grab onto God by becoming a Christian, embrace Him, ASK Him HOW to be #1 in your life, you will.find His perfect Love. One day, like Elizabeth Elliott found, you, doing things in His will and understanding His timing , can find a love in life who will submit and love you like is the beauty of scripture in Ephesians 5:22 and Colossians 3:18

May God bless you with His Love on this your birth day . I pray you re-birth it to Him really, really soon. amen

Jullianna · May 26, 2012

Uriel, happy birthday

It is never wrong to ask for prayer. It reveals a humble heart and that's exactly what God hears.

There are times when it seems like our prayers are hitting the ceiling and the reason is our relationship with Christ. However, like Daniel, there are times when we pray about a thing and there is a spiritual battle that we can't see going on. From your other threads, I still believe that God fully intends to raise you up and use you in a mighty way. satan hates that.

HANG ON! KEEP READING! KEEP PRAYING! We WILL pray with you! God LOVES YOU!

violakat · May 26, 2012

Uriel,
It sounds like your feeling that God has abandoned you, for what ever reason. However God has never abandoned, the verses below makes it clear that despite any circumstance God will always love you:

"35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For Your sake we are killed all day long;We are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.” 37 Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. 38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:35-36

In some ways, you sound how I was a few years ago. From the time I was saved until a few years ago, I use to worry that I would lose my Salvation, that God would never really save me. But it wasn't until I finally understood the depth of Salvation that I finally understood God's love for me. That I finally grasped that I no longer had to beg God to forgive and save me, that He had, totally, once and for all time forgave me of my sins and made me a whole person. Part of the reason I could not completely accept God's love was that there was a barrier I kept putting up around my heart, an area of great pain. Once that barrier came down, God began to heal my heart and to give me the peace I needed.

Uriel, is there some barrier around your heart, a place that you don't want God to see?

If so, watch this video: God’s Chisel Remastered Video « The Skit Guys

Also, when you have some time, look up the following verses. 1 Peter 5:7, Ephesians 3:16-21, John 3:14-18, Psalms 36:5, Jeremiah 31:3, Zephaniah 3:17, Romans 8:35-39

GreenNnice · May 26, 2012

wanting2believe said:

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I see this yearning in you, Uriel, you are crying out for God, so, therefore, I write like I do. The Lord leads me, I hope and pray, that you find yourself humbled and them empowered to choose the unending joy of Jesus in your life foreverafter

Here is some power of desire in your words: I also pray that I can come close to God and feel God and feel the holy spirit and finally be like you guys who are rocks and are sustain by God.. It is not easy to feel so lost and lonely and left out.. I feel alone in the world and with God

Uriel, birthday boy, I want to bring to light meaning out of one of your 'signature' verses: Matthew 7:7 .

= ” Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.”

This is a great verse for those understanding 'meat' of the Word, for just 'asking,' and 'just' 'seeking' and just 'knocking' won't get something given to you by God.

Uriel, you must do more, and, I will take you past your understanding of 'milk' to the 'meat,' the Lord leads.

Look at these next verses listed and tell me what is different from your Matt. 7:7 verse. Ok

1 John 3:22 ”And receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him.”

John 14:13 ”And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father.”

John 15:16 ”You did not choose me, but I chose you (You choose to accept, or, not accept, His choosing of you) and appointed you to go and bear fruit--fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.”

Matthew 21:22 ”If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.

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Uriel, what words are different, rather, excluded from Matthew 7:7 ?

I put the words, and, consequently, they lead to the answers, green (what other color even is there, I mean, really now. The choice is obvious )

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You mention the Holy Spirit yoy want to feel too. That is easy for you to have the Holy Spirit, it is nothing wild and magical it is simply you ready to RECEIVE Him, to ask, to knock to seek, with all your heart, asking in His (Jesus) name, and, believing through your demonstration of faith by doing and keeping His commandments, remembering the greatest commandment of loving God with all your mind, heart, body, and, soul, having repented of ALL your past sins, which is a change of mind followed by a change of action.

These things will show God you are proclaiming Him Lord of your life forever on Earth and in Heaven you will go, forevermore blessec after you die.

wanting2believe · May 27, 2012

thank you guys I was going to write this big letter but I felt it was dumb. I actually felt better afterwards.. I saw the passion of the Christ. I was flipping the channels I found it.. and well .. yea I wont deny that it made me see many things I couldn't see. All I can say that Im not a wanting to believe.. Im more of a idc if my mind dosent understand and my heart doubts.. but this I will believe.. I will believe and well today I decided to believe and never question him (hopefully never again fall) and well it idk I just wanted to share this with you all.

"Do you not even fear God, seeing you are under the same condemnation? And we indeed justly, for we receive the due reward of our deeds; but this Man has done nothing wrong." Then he said to Jesus, "Lord, remember me when You come into Your kingdom." "

GreenNnice · May 27, 2012

wanting2believe said:

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Yes ,Uriel, God will remember you , but, you never know if,, like that thief on the cross, you will get that chance to believe, like that thief did get to do and be with Jesus in paradise.'

Yes, yes, yes, only believe, don't need to build Rome in a day, Uriel, that is, everything will be night and day different for you from not believing to believing, it can be a process. The Lord leads, do things, like church, like spending time in bible with a handbook like Hailey's Bible Handbook and pray for God to show you things. Most important for you now is to believe in Jesus' dying on The cross 2000 years ago, with your heart at peace with that feeling. God saving us from death torture forevermore, which Jesus did do by The Cross, should put such a beautiful peace in you, Uriel. Let God show you things, ask in His name to be able to see more of Him, fervently , diligently, sincerely obey Him, as best you can, and, God will show up.

Have faith, Uriel, you have a quiet spirit, crying for God . Others on c.c. hear you, snackersmom, maxpower, and, others in chatroom were showing sincere care for you. That is God ! How beautiful is that

You're asking for God and He is now showing up as God works through people . Me, of course, too, I hope and pray for wonderful things for you, choosing Him so that peace can fully fill you, like a river, in your soul. Blessings, in Christ, Ed

P.s. Wow! What a sharp-dressed man you are, Uriel . Every girl is crazy about a sharp-dressed man, but, Uriel, you're changing and your old self, slowly,is being peeled off. Wear that suit for going to church, wear it to show God your wearing your Sunday brst for Him. i want you to concentrate on Him. The Lord will bring right love from Him when right,, that, I think, for noe, will take time. Rest in Him

wwjd_kilden · May 27, 2012

The bible speaks of having faith like a mustard seed. You coming here asking for prayers show you have at least that, most likelly more

praying,

Jullianna · May 27, 2012

wanting2believe said:

Uriel, you have pretty much defined what faith is here.

You are CHOOSING to believe and trust God no matter what you see or how you feel. Perhaps this is what God has been trying to teach you.

Hebrews 11:1 - Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

John 20:29 -Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."

You are blessed, my friend, even if you don't FEEL like it right now

You may not be seeing the miraculous power of God in your life just yet, but some of us are seeing it work in you.

Jullianna · May 27, 2012

P.S. - You are living out what we talked about yesterday re: Abraham. Being made righteous by FAITH alone

Snackersmom · May 27, 2012

I'm glad you're feeling better, Uriel. It truly is grace that saves us, through faith. We don't make ourselves worthy, because we can't, only Jesus can. It's not even our own faith by which we believe; it's HIS. So, if you feel as if you lack faith, you can ask Him for more, He gives good things to those who ask (and I'm not talking about material things, either

). God bless, and keep digging, Jesus is SO worth it!

wanting2believe · May 27, 2012

Thank You all. I understand Ive taken this big step. I really am grateful for coming here. I honestly can say that I feel better and tho I still have fears. I will pray God to help me, because I dont want to fall out of faith again. Idk lately my insecurities have gotten a hold of me but I just try not to pay attention.

Jullianna · May 28, 2012

He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. ~ Philippians 1:6

He is faithful always, Uriel. Never forget. <3

frankleespeaking · May 28, 2012

wanting2believe said:

part of faith is walking in a direction or in a way where we are not led by how we feel, my testimony is a strong one against trusting your feelings, feelings are a very deceptive tool used and twisted by satan, he can use feelings to drive us away from God, get into Gods word and trust what He says!, He loves you so much that He gave His own Son as a sacrifice for you, even if you were the only human to be saved, Jesus would of laid down His life for yours, trust in Jesus, trust that He loves you. feelings are the most untrust worthy source of truth, and I will pray for you also that you will begin walking in faith, and rebuking the lies that come into your mind, that stand in the face of Gods truth. 23 is just stepping out the door in life, don't let disapointments rule the day, so much can happen in the future that you just can't imagine the good things and wholeness of love God has stored up to bring into your life.

GreenNnice · May 29, 2012

Snackersmom said:

wanting2believe said:

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Uriel, your 'insecurities' are The Enemy (Satan) attacking you, and, guess what, mi compadres, you're definitely not alone. Satan, that snake is really out there and he tries to influence us all to choose the easy road, the w

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road. That's wide, so wide, ahh, too sin, Uriel, is soooo easy. Just like being a thief, it''s not hard to be athief, I mean, pick someone's house to be robbed after casing the joint a couple times, and, go when people not home. Easy. Easy to take their jewelry, flat screen, money, xbox 360, etc. , but it''s not easy when one has the PERFECT chance to rob someone, and, knows they will get a lot of loot and......

doesn't choose to rob.

Here's another example, it''s easy, if you are a guy, to seduce a girl, especially a younger one into going out with you. i won't go into detail of an example, but, we guys KNOW, it''s EASY !

That is sad, isn't it,, I mean, what kind of peace does one get for robbing a girl of something precious to her or robbing peole of their precious, hard-worked-for possessions. No peace, right? Maybe robbing someone felt good at the time, or, taking advantage of girl felt good at time, but, Uriel, IF you're heart is not feeling good having done these 'wordly' things then that is the Holy Spirit talking to you, convicting yu, like Paul.....

Know Paul, he was 'Saul' (before name change to 'Paul) , a sinner of all sinners, ordering Roman countrymen to kill christians. But on the road to Damascus Saul suddenly saw a bright light from heaven that shined all around him and a voice from the clouds came down, 'Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting me?'
And, Saul said, 'Who are you, Lord.'
The Lord aswered, 'I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting.'
Saul answered, 'What do you want me to do?'

Lord then used Saul who became Paul a little later in life, after having had this exchange in scripture between Saul and Jesus. Saul met Ananias then, whom God appointed to go to Saul, who was blindnow, after that 'blinding' experience with Jesus. Ananias then helped Paul, first unblinded, second, Holy Spirit received. Then, Saul went to disciples in Damascus and learned.

Uriel?

Paul was strengthening his what in learning? His faith.

You say, you are 'falling in and out of faith.' That is normal in strengthening your belief, Saul, who became the greatest missionary of God, needed his faith developed too . Just like you now

Snackersmom said this to me in a PM, Uriel, and, by the way, you can PM (private message) me, anytime

, she said that God helps us with our faith, which originally God gave man (and woman)-like everything else- when man old enough to be given a 'measure of faith.' That is profound Truth from her there, Uriel, your faith you have now was from Him, and, a measured amount was given you. And, like Snackers said too, you can ask for more measure of faith from.God

Or, as, wwkj said, 'You just need to have faith of a mustard seed,' for God to move mountains through you. This, too, can work for your believing in Christ, coming to belief.

So, you are believing in God now, good ( I still want you to proclaim your acceptance to.Christ, at church, or,, wherever YOU feel led (convicted) to no longer live of this 'world's' ways even though you are, like all of us, living in the world. Pethaps, deep meaning there, but don't worry about that now, only worry about giving ALL your worries and cares to Him and accepting His peace forever in your life.

Snackersmom · May 29, 2012

Snackersmom said:

I'm just going to clarify what I meant here, Uriel, because Mr. Green thought that I didn't make it clear enough

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When a person accepts Jesus, they do so with the faith God has given them. They don't "muster it up" on their own, it is given to them as they seek/hear the word of God, so it's a free gift from Him, it doesn't come from us. However, once God gives you that faith, it's yours, and it's your responsibility to build it and keep it strong, by obeying Him and following Him, reading your bible, telling others about His love, praising Him, etc.

So.....faith comes from God, but once He gives it to us, it's ours, and we can always go to Him for more. I hope that made sense

GreenNnice · May 29, 2012

Snackersmom said:

_____Beautifully said, snackers, so true !

Have faith of a mustard seed (The very smallest seed in the world) and God can make that faith sooooo beautiful, soooo grow through your belief

This verse is of a father, who is wanting Jesus to heal the father's demon-possessed daughter:

” Lord, I believe, help my unbelief.'

This speaks of this man having faith in Jesus, but, with prompt from Jesus verse earlier, 'If you believe, all things are possible to him who believes,' ASKS Jesus to help him believe. Jesus then excorcises the demon from the father's daughter.

This, too, verse above was thought of by snackers, but it sooo explains your wondering ('falling,' your word, Uriel) in and out of faith, and, I am glad you're sounding closer and closer to letting Him in.. We,, snackers, julianna, wwjd, violakat, all who say things are but vessels that God works through to steer you toward His Loving arms and you can see the peace and power and freedom and everlasting of Him for you right before your eyes, Uriel.

I have decided to follow Jesus.
I have decided to follow Jesus.
I have decided to follow Jesus, no.turning back, no turning back.

The world behind me, the cross before me.
The world behind me, the cross before me.
The world behind me, the cross before me, no turning back, no turning bsck.

Livi94 · May 29, 2012

Happy 23rd! And I'll also pray for you <3

In need of prayer..I know that Im probably going against the rules..

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