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As some of you may know, my marriage recently ended. This has been a very harrowing time for me, as would be expected, but I'm finding myself feeling incredibly lonely.
Even though my marriage was not intimate, or loving in any way, I still find myself craving companionship, and although I have my friends, family and a good support network around me, I still ache with loneliness.
If I'm entirely honest, I was lonely during the marriage too, and found myself craving intimacy the way I knew God intended for within marriage (probably because my marriage lacked this).
We were married 7 years and the separation is still very recent (about 3 months ago), and the pain still very raw, but I am trying to just move forward with my life. I feel a little bound, as Australian law requires a couple to be separated for 12 months before they can legally get divorced. Don't misunderstand this statement, I never chose to divorce, and I know it's not the 'preferred outcome', but I'm really in a situation where I have no choice in the matter (I'd prefer not to go into details). However, it has been made abundantly clear to me that divorce is inevitable in my situation, so I've made a concious decision to move on with my life with each new day. Although I understand the reasoning behind the aformenetioned law (and I agree with it), I can't help but feel like it's prolonging the pain and angst in a way. Like, while I'm still separated and not 'divorced', I can't really have closure.
Also, it doesnt help with the loneliness. I am in no way ready for another relationship just yet, but I can't help but crave the intmacy I have never known. I'm really having to stop myself in my tracks and remind myself that I am still 'legally married'.. and even if I were ready for a relationship, that I can't pursue one because of this.
I guess my point is, I'm confused. I really just want closure, I want to move on. My situation is awkward.. I'm single, but I'm married- to someone who has already moved on. What do I do? How do I beat the loneliness? I have never been the kind of girl to look at a guy and be all giddy over him, or struggle with lusting after a guy. But this loneliness is doing crazy things to me. Yesterday I went to get my prescription filled at the pharmacy and I 'noticed' the cute male Pharmacist.. today I had to go back and found myself staring at him from a distance. I completely lost track of the reason I was there, and instead spent 10 minutes watching this guy work. Am I going insane?
Can somebody please help with suggestions to help combat the loneliness.
Even though my marriage was not intimate, or loving in any way, I still find myself craving companionship, and although I have my friends, family and a good support network around me, I still ache with loneliness.
If I'm entirely honest, I was lonely during the marriage too, and found myself craving intimacy the way I knew God intended for within marriage (probably because my marriage lacked this).
We were married 7 years and the separation is still very recent (about 3 months ago), and the pain still very raw, but I am trying to just move forward with my life. I feel a little bound, as Australian law requires a couple to be separated for 12 months before they can legally get divorced. Don't misunderstand this statement, I never chose to divorce, and I know it's not the 'preferred outcome', but I'm really in a situation where I have no choice in the matter (I'd prefer not to go into details). However, it has been made abundantly clear to me that divorce is inevitable in my situation, so I've made a concious decision to move on with my life with each new day. Although I understand the reasoning behind the aformenetioned law (and I agree with it), I can't help but feel like it's prolonging the pain and angst in a way. Like, while I'm still separated and not 'divorced', I can't really have closure.
Also, it doesnt help with the loneliness. I am in no way ready for another relationship just yet, but I can't help but crave the intmacy I have never known. I'm really having to stop myself in my tracks and remind myself that I am still 'legally married'.. and even if I were ready for a relationship, that I can't pursue one because of this.
I guess my point is, I'm confused. I really just want closure, I want to move on. My situation is awkward.. I'm single, but I'm married- to someone who has already moved on. What do I do? How do I beat the loneliness? I have never been the kind of girl to look at a guy and be all giddy over him, or struggle with lusting after a guy. But this loneliness is doing crazy things to me. Yesterday I went to get my prescription filled at the pharmacy and I 'noticed' the cute male Pharmacist.. today I had to go back and found myself staring at him from a distance. I completely lost track of the reason I was there, and instead spent 10 minutes watching this guy work. Am I going insane?
Can somebody please help with suggestions to help combat the loneliness.