Thank you all.
Jilly- That's been a very confusing thing for me...figuring out how I should feel about this. There are moments when I don't feel much about it, and then others, when I remember how he was when I was a kid, when he was actually being a dad, when I feel terrible. I get confused then; when I feel nothing, I think I should feel more. When I feel a lot, I think I should feel nothing. But I've come to a point where I think...I think I can accept both feelings, and let them run their course.
Really appreciate prayers today.