Sometimes...I just dont want to!

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I've heard and have been told that the feeling of loneliness I have every now and then is because of a deeper longing within me to be close to God. Sometimes I just wanna dive in and worship Him and read His word with all of my heart. Other times I feel like its hard. I feel depressed and just wanna curl up under my blanket and sulk. Sometimes I just don't feel like worshipping. Its weird but sulking feels so comfortable to me, I'd rather do it than worship. Am I weird? Is something wrong with me? Does anyone else ever feel like this? Because I know when I do, I think I'm just the worst child of God in the world.
 

Subhumanoidal

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Perhaps try reading Psalms.
The bible has quite a bit about the suffering and struggles of believers. Its modern teachings that claim its somehow bad if you aren't constantly joyful.
 
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Perhaps try reading Psalms.
The bible has quite a bit about the suffering and struggles of believers. Its modern teachings that claim its somehow bad if you aren't constantly joyful.
But my issue is that sometimes I just don't want to read or I don't want to worship or pray. Does that mean I'm not s child of God? Am I under spiritual attack? Or is it normal? Whatever it is, I feel horrible about it
 
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But my issue is that sometimes I just don't want to read or I don't want to worship or pray. Does that mean I'm not s child of God? Am I under spiritual attack? Or is it normal? Whatever it is, I feel horrible about it
You wouldn't feel horrible about it if you weren't His child. All believers go through spiritual depression. Not saying that is exactly your case, but this may help you dear sister:

https://www.desiringgod.org/articles/whats-wrong-with-me
 

Subhumanoidal

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But my issue is that sometimes I just don't want to read or I don't want to worship or pray. Does that mean I'm not s child of God? Am I under spiritual attack? Or is it normal? Whatever it is, I feel horrible about it
That was kind of my point. What you're feeling is nothing new.
Paul said "I do what I do not want to do, and what I want to do i do not do".
Not wanting to do something, even seen as beneficial, is nothing new. Just because that thing happens to be a spiritual one doesn't mean you're somehow bad. By nature people aren't consistent. Emotions, hormones, etc... all affect us. It's normal.
 
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I've heard and have been told that the feeling of loneliness I have every now and then is because of a deeper longing within me to be close to God. Sometimes I just wanna dive in and worship Him and read His word with all of my heart. Other times I feel like its hard. I feel depressed and just wanna curl up under my blanket and sulk. Sometimes I just don't feel like worshipping. Its weird but sulking feels so comfortable to me, I'd rather do it than worship. Am I weird? Is something wrong with me? Does anyone else ever feel like this? Because I know when I do, I think I'm just the worst child of God in the world.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18 NIV
 

melita916

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there have been plenty of times I don't want to talk with the Lord when I'm sad/depressed/etc. many of those times, I'm just honest with Him. no fancy words. no cliches. just honest. I cry/complain... just open up my heart and share with Him exactly how I feel. after all, He already knows, right? lol. after I have a good cry, a lot of the times (or maybe each time), I get up feeling better. heck! sometimes, after a good cry, I end up remembering how God has helped me in the past, and then the sad session becomes a worship session! :)
 

Dino246

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I've heard and have been told that the feeling of loneliness I have every now and then is because of a deeper longing within me to be close to God. Sometimes I just wanna dive in and worship Him and read His word with all of my heart. Other times I feel like its hard. I feel depressed and just wanna curl up under my blanket and sulk. Sometimes I just don't feel like worshipping. Its weird but sulking feels so comfortable to me, I'd rather do it than worship. Am I weird? Is something wrong with me? Does anyone else ever feel like this? Because I know when I do, I think I'm just the worst child of God in the world.
If I may...

The Christian life is not all about "worshiping God". Worship is important and good, but sometimes we as His kids need to curl up in His arms and just let His love restore us.
 

Prognostic

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I hear you. It's okay. You're under no pressure. Take it in your stride. You're only human. Don't be hard on yourself. God loves you no less. Be happy oh great little one.
 

Deade

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But my issue is that sometimes I just don't want to read or I don't want to worship or pray. Does that mean I'm not s child of God? Am I under spiritual attack? Or is it normal? Whatever it is, I feel horrible about it
What I usually do when I am down like this, I just praise Him anyway. That really make the devil mad. God does back away from us to test us to see if our faith endures the valleys. Praise God for the valleys too. without them, we wouldn't recognize mountain tops. If you are doing anything for God, of course you are under attack.

1 Pet. 4:12, 13
"Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy." :cool:
 

Pipp

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Honey, that is flesh and we ALL face it sometimes.