If it's not nostalgia, and isn't love... If there's no pinning, and those deep longings mutated into something else along the way...if you'd completely given up, but find yourself unable to truly let go... Then what is this sickness inside a soul?
I can't call it holy, but lack conviction of sin... What is it that I'm holding which is holding me within? These inconsistent feelings that come back to me again... Will I ever lose some, or get lost some within them?