Last night, when I tried to sleep, I was suddenly frightened by my current state. I woke up with a startling realization that I was not happy with myself and who I am. After that, I tried to go back to sleep. But, awoke again with a feeling of dread. I tried to sleep again... But, I awoke feeling frustrated. So, I yelled and screamed to release this feeling in my chest. It finally reduced it a little bit and found a small amount of relief. But, the trouble of sleeping stayed with me. I kept waking up every 30-40 minutes. I think I may need some counseling to clear up some issues in my head. Or even find a psychiatrist that can evaluate my current mental state. Because I don't think how I feel should be considered "normal."