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zeroturbulence

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While reading my book of well-spoken words, I noticed that I have used many of these words in essays for school, yet have received notes from profs that about using correct grammar, or crossing off my word and using a different one instead. Which I always found annoying. So now I am thinking all smug, well I WAS just using words and sayings that carry more weight :rolleyes: I am not at fault if you cannot appreciate it :rolleyes: :p
"The words you say will either acquit you or condemn you." - Matthew 12:37 NLT

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Markum1972

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I am eating and sleeping well again. My strength is returning to me. I am watching and praying. I know that a season of action has come again. A time to take up my sword and go back into battle.
The time for fasting and rest has come to an end for now. I have to be vigilant. I know something is coming soon. I will be watchful and wait upon the Lord.
Last night was a tough night for Denise. She had nightmares throughout the night. I found her this morning in a different room of the house. I almost didn't see her curled up in the corner. For a moment I had thought maybe she had left in the middle of the night.
She confided in me this morning and told me that the temptation was intense for her last night. It was a bad night for her. Today is a new day. I know that God will renew her strength.
She somehow has a part in what is coming up. I am not yet sure what it is but I have some ideas. I don't put much thought to it. I know God will reveal it when the time comes.
Another a visit to the kids today.
 

lil_christian

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My bedroom is 80 Fahrenheit while the rest of the house is 72....this. Is. Not. Fair.
 
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MissCris

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I feel a migraine coming on...must take immediate defensive action. This will include drugs (uhh...appropriate ones), water, a super soft pillow, and a nap.

I hate my head sometimes. It's...defective.
 
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arwen83

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I think of death too often. The one thing that I have learnt in my lifetime is that one must protect oneself from impending danger. Must be one step ahead. I've learnt this from multiple things, one of them being by having epilepsy. It's scary to live in a reality to know you cannot control your own body. It can betray you, put you in harm or kill you. My seizures have been controlled for 7 years, up to that point they weren't for 11 years. The fear, the reality, still remains very present in my life. I think this is why others committing suicide effects me so much. Because I desire to live, yet find death looming over my head. I think when you find yourself in a situation where you have little control over if you live or die, you find reasons to live.

I think I've gone alittle too far though, seeking control. And I know the Christian answer that the after life will be better than the present world. Maybe it's more the fear of being responsible for my own death; that I could have prevented my demise. I need to know that I have some control. And I know the Christian answer to trust in The Lord. But I cannot, because ultimately God is limited by the will of man. If I cannot trust God, if I cannot trust man, then I can only trust myself. But as I have experienced with my own body, it can betray me, so I cannot even fully trust myself.

This all has left me quite closed in. I used to be adventurous. Me and my friend used to ride our bikes to different parts of the city, unknown to us, discovering things. Now when I get on a bus, or take drive, I only think of dying.

I want to go to Montreal, I want to take a train but I fear. It's hard for me to save up money regardless of my fear.
 
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zeroturbulence

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I think of death too often. The one thing that I have learnt in my lifetime is that one must protect oneself from impending danger. Must be one step ahead. I've learnt this from multiple things, one of them being by having epilepsy. It's scary to live in a reality to know you cannot control your own body. It can betray you, put you in harm or kill you. My seizures have been controlled for 7 years, up to that point they weren't for 11 years. The fear, the reality, still remains very present in my life. I think this is why others committing suicide effects me so much. Because I desire to live, yet find death looming over my head. I think when you find yourself in a situation where you have little control over if you live or die, you find reasons to live.

I think I've gone alittle too far though, seeking control. And I know the Christian answer that the after life will be better than the present world. Maybe it's more the fear of being responsible for my own death; that I could have prevented my demise. I need to know that I have some control. And I know the Christian answer to trust in The Lord. But I cannot, because ultimately God is limited by the will of man. If I cannot trust God, if I cannot trust man, then I can only trust myself. But as I have experienced with my own body, it can betray me, so I cannot even fully trust myself.

This all has left me quite closed in. I used to be adventurous. Me and my friend used to ride our bikes to different parts of the city, unknown to us, discovering things. Now when I get on a bus, or take drive, I only think of dying.

I want to go to Montreal, I want to take a train but I fear. It's hard for me to save up money regardless of my fear.
You may not have control over your life, but GOD does.

"The LORD will keep you from all harm-- he will watch over your life" - Psalm 121:7 NIV

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For it is written, He shall give his angels charge over you, to keep you:" - Luke 4:10 KJV

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o harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent." - Psalm 91:10 NIV
 
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Immawildthing

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In three words, I can tell you everything Ive learned about life: It goes on.
 

lil_christian

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In the end, God is the ultimate authority, regardless of our will. If God says something isn't going to happen, it really isn't going to happen, no matter what you try to do. Not saying that people don't have free will or are robots. God does have a plan and some things in His plan will play out no matter what, kinda like Jonah. But there are times where you go a different direction and God says, "Okay we'll go in that direction." but we would have received so much more blessing going the way He wanted you to go.
 

Markum1972

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A conclusion to my last post has already come.

Today Denise shook as she frantically prepared me a last meal. She cut herself bad while cooking and would not let me address it. She wrapped it and continued cooking, packing, and preparing.

She cried at times but mostly held her tears and distracted herself by staying busy. She wanted to run. She told me, "I have always ran. I have gotten good at it. Instead of running away, I am going to run to this time."

The only time she smiled was when she presented me with the meal that she prepared for me. She quickly turned away as I smiled back and went back to doing clothes and packing.

I got a quick hug and goodbye from her. She didn't want to pause a moment. I helped her carry her bags out the door and to her ride to the rehab center.

I am literally in tears right now while writing this. There are a number of us that have been praying for this day for a long time. Thanks to all of you that have kept this situation in your prayers.

There is so much to this story. It began 23 years ago. I hope to share it soon.
 
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arwen83

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You may not have control over your life, but GOD does.

"The LORD will keep you from all harm-- he will watch over your life" - Psalm 121:7 NIV

"
For it is written, He shall give his angels charge over you, to keep you:" - Luke 4:10 KJV

"N
o harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent." - Psalm 91:10 NIV
While I appreciate you responding, God has not kept me from harm. So I do not believe these scriptures are true. God has not kept a lot of people from harm, because he gave man free will and men are fallen and commit evil acts. Think of the persecutions, the atrocities that have been commited to Gods people. Perhaps, the psalms were directed to Israel at a certain period of time.
 
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NodMyHeadLikeYeah

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I think of death too often. The one thing that I have learnt in my lifetime is that one must protect oneself from impending danger. Must be one step ahead. I've learnt this from multiple things, one of them being by having epilepsy. It's scary to live in a reality to know you cannot control your own body. It can betray you, put you in harm or kill you. My seizures have been controlled for 7 years, up to that point they weren't for 11 years. The fear, the reality, still remains very present in my life. I think this is why others committing suicide effects me so much. Because I desire to live, yet find death looming over my head. I think when you find yourself in a situation where you have little control over if you live or die, you find reasons to live.

I think I've gone alittle too far though, seeking control. And I know the Christian answer that the after life will be better than the present world. Maybe it's more the fear of being responsible for my own death; that I could have prevented my demise. I need to know that I have some control. And I know the Christian answer to trust in The Lord. But I cannot, because ultimately God is limited by the will of man. If I cannot trust God, if I cannot trust man, then I can only trust myself. But as I have experienced with my own body, it can betray me, so I cannot even fully trust myself.

This all has left me quite closed in. I used to be adventurous. Me and my friend used to ride our bikes to different parts of the city, unknown to us, discovering things. Now when I get on a bus, or take drive, I only think of dying.

I want to go to Montreal, I want to take a train but I fear. It's hard for me to save up money regardless of my fear.
I can relate to this like i'm the one who wrote it.
 

Fenner

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Today is one of those days I'm thanking God for the peace in my mind, soul and life. I used to worry myself crazy. The anxiety took me over. I am finally me again. No longer in that black hole out of control. Thank you God for my sister in law who pushed everyday for me to find help. Thank you for leading me to Rob the only therapist that's ever helped.

A year of anxiety free living! Thank you for saving my life God!
 

lil_christian

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While I appreciate you responding, God has not kept me from harm. So I do not believe these scriptures are true. God has not kept a lot of people from harm, because he gave man free will and men are fallen and commit evil acts. Think of the persecutions, the atrocities that have been commited to Gods people. Perhaps, the psalms were directed to Israel at a certain period of time.
I can tell you, that this still rings true.
Deuteronomy 31:6


[SUP]6 [/SUP]Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the Lord your God is the one who goes with you. He will not fail you or forsake you.”
 
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zaoman32

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While I appreciate you responding, God has not kept me from harm. So I do not believe these scriptures are true. God has not kept a lot of people from harm, because he have man free will to do evil.
I don't think that's so much the case as misinterpretation. Outside of that, I agree. This is actually really something that I have been thinking about quite a lot lately and it really drives me up the wall. I like to call it "false optimism". The idea that, as long as we believe in God, then we get everything we want, and life is one big happy peach! It's BS, for lack of a better term. A big favorite term at my old church that I completely disagree with is "your will be done the same on earth as it is in heaven." Not only is that a misinterpretation of scripture it is a complete and blatant misquote that has absolutely no bearing in scripture. "Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven", does not mean God will make us live on earth as life in heaven is. It simply means God's will will come to pass in both earth and heaven, there's no indication and it's foolish to think that we can possibly live without tears, sickness, and pain. We need to remember that the bible also says that Satan is the prince of the world. As long as Satan is free to tempt, and bring in evil...there will be evil. There will be temptation. Not to mention in Ecclesiastes it even says there is a time to mourn and cry. The more we're convinced that our lives our going to happy and carefree all the time, the more we numb ourselves to the harsh reality of hurts and pain, the harder we fall when that reality finally hits home. We will be kept in constant joy as the bible says yes, but that simply means having peace in the midst of storms, not that the storms will never come. God keeps us from harm not by keeping us happy and meeting our demands, but by giving us that joy that brings peace, not to mention that joy only comes when we keep our minds stayed on the Lord, and you know as well as I do, that it's much easier said than done. If you keep believing these false interpretations of verses, then Job went through hell because why?
 

lil_christian

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I don't think that's so much the case as misinterpretation. Outside of that, I agree. This is actually really something that I have been thinking about quite a lot lately and it really drives me up the wall. I like to call it "false optimism". The idea that, as long as we believe in God, then we get everything we want, and life is one big happy peach! It's BS, for lack of a better term. A big favorite term at my old church that I completely disagree with is "your will be done the same on earth as it is in heaven." Not only is that a misinterpretation of scripture it is a complete and blatant misquote that has absolutely no bearing in scripture. "Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven", does not mean God will make us live on earth as life in heaven is. It simply means God's will will come to pass in both earth and heaven, there's no indication and it's foolish to think that we can possibly live without tears, sickness, and pain. We need to remember that the bible also says that Satan is the prince of the world. As long as Satan is free to tempt, and bring in evil...there will be evil. There will be temptation. Not to mention in Ecclesiastes it even says there is a time to mourn and cry. The more we're convinced that our lives our going to happy and carefree all the time, the more we numb ourselves to the harsh reality of hurts and pain, the harder we fall when that reality finally hits home. We will be kept in constant joy as the bible says yes, but that simply means having peace in the midst of storms, not that the storms will never come. God keeps us from harm not by keeping us happy and meeting our demands, but by giving us that joy that brings peace, not to mention that joy only comes when we keep our minds stayed on the Lord, and you know as well as I do, that it's much easier said than done. If you keep believing these false interpretations of verses, then Job went through hell because why?
Definitely

We need to learn to praise God in the storm. Learn to cling to God's promises. He won't leave you or forsake you. Even though what you're going through is hard, God and His promises remain true. God remains true. And that alone is worthy of our praise. We will go through not-so-great seasons in our life, but God remains good.

These are the things we need to focus on. When we focus on Jesus and not the storm, nothing else matters. Not death, or persecution, or being abandoned by someone we love dearly. Just Him.
 
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arwen83

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I don't think that's so much the case as misinterpretation. Outside of that, I agree. This is actually really something that I have been thinking about quite a lot lately and it really drives me up the wall. I like to call it "false optimism". The idea that, as long as we believe in God, then we get everything we want, and life is one big happy peach! It's BS, for lack of a better term. A big favorite term at my old church that I completely disagree with is "your will be done the same on earth as it is in heaven." Not only is that a misinterpretation of scripture it is a complete and blatant misquote that has absolutely no bearing in scripture. "Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven", does not mean God will make us live on earth as life in heaven is. It simply means God's will will come to pass in both earth and heaven, there's no indication and it's foolish to think that we can possibly live without tears, sickness, and pain. We need to remember that the bible also says that Satan is the prince of the world. As long as Satan is free to tempt, and bring in evil...there will be evil. There will be temptation. Not to mention in Ecclesiastes it even says there is a time to mourn and cry. The more we're convinced that our lives our going to happy and carefree all the time, the more we numb ourselves to the harsh reality of hurts and pain, the harder we fall when that reality finally hits home. We will be kept in constant joy as the bible says yes, but that simply means having peace in the midst of storms, not that the storms will never come. God keeps us from harm not by keeping us happy and meeting our demands, but by giving us that joy that brings peace, not to mention that joy only comes when we keep our minds stayed on the Lord, and you know as well as I do, that it's much easier said than done. If you keep believing these false interpretations of verses, then Job went through hell because why?
Yeah I guess saying that its untrue is pretty extreme, it was backed by an emotional response. My apologies. You're right about misinterpretation.
 

HEIsRiSen

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I'm happy to see Holly is back. I hope she didn't miss me too much.