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CatHerder

CatHerder

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I've cut out most simple carbs - lost 12 pounds in two weeks. Had a piece of pizza last night after the concert and felt all bleghy because of it. It's strange, I actually WANT veggies now! I even had the energy to bicycle to rehearsal the other night instead of drive - even the thought of that would have exhausted me after having worked a full day!

It's amazing how much we abuse ourselves over convenience. We put so much crap in our systems because doing something the healthy way a) can be more time consuming, b) can be more expensive, c) requires planning. Even as I plan and food prep for what I hope will be a lasting lifestyle change, I wonder how much our love of convenience transfers over into my Christian walk.

I gave up a relationship recently - my daughter is quite fond of her. This lady, my daughter, and I run in the same circles now as we are all musicians and they both played together in a musical that I directed and they both bonded. I let down my guard and let things get too far - nothing major, but still inappropriate, as this lady is not a believer. My daughter, who is not privy to any of these recent developments, encouraged our relationship. This provided a teachable moment as I explained that while I really liked C and agreed that she is an amazing woman, God's word warns us about being unequally yoked. My daughter was silent for a while, which means that she was processing this. Good. I want her to see that Christianity is something I actually live out and not merely profess.

I suppose this choice may seem like an inconvenience, since I can have a few moments of fleeting happiness. But honestly, it seems like a big burden has been lifted and not an inconvenience at all!

My prayer for myself and my new friends on Christian Chat is that we would choose to lead inconvenient lives which challenge us to grow in Him.
 
Markum1972

Markum1972

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I have realized that this past 24 hours that there are binds upon my wrists. My eyes were gouged by my enemies but God has restored my sight. The binds have been there for long enough that I could not feel them. Yet now that my sight has been restored, I can see them.

The Lord has been with me through all of my weakness. He has never forsaken me. A time has come though when the Lord shall give His strength to me again that I may break these binds and overtake His enemy.

The enemy has made a spectacle and mockery of me for long enough.

The gates have been carried off. Not so I could enter, but so others might be set free. Very soon the pillars will be shaken and overturned and the house of the enemy shall fall.
 
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Powemm

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Looks up and reads greens post ..
Thinking " yep! Absolutely right".
Very good reminder ...
 
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Powemm

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Markum1972 said:
I have realized that this past 24 hours that there are binds upon my wrists. My eyes were gouged by my enemies but God has restored my sight. The binds have been there for long enough that I could not feel them. Yet now that my sight has been restored, I can see them.

The Lord has been with me through all of my weakness. He has never forsaken me. A time has come though when the Lord shall give His strength to me again that I may break these binds and overtake His enemy.

The enemy has made a spectacle and mockery of me for long enough.

The gates have been carried off. Not so I could enter, but so others might be set free. Very soon the pillars will be shaken and overturned and the house of the enemy shall fall...


Reads comment above ..... Thinking

" well of course !!! ")
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Ugly

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itores post got me thinking about my own mother. She died when i was 21. She contracted Hepatitis C from her job at a crack town police department in the early 80's, before AIDS and Hep C were well known. Getting stuck with dirty drug needles was common back then in police work, but there wasn't much danger from it before AIDS/Hep C. She worked in the evidence department and was stuck all the time with the used needles.
My parents spent a year or two in North Carolina (we lived in S FL at the time). I was a depressed mess, who had done nothing with my life, and had no plans to. Working dead end job, and engaged to a person my parents didn't agree with (and rightly so). I got the call from my sister at work. Mom had died. Even worse, they were still in NC. She had died in a hospital. Earlier that day, my parents had decided on the retirement house they wanted to live in. Finally had picked one out after months of looking. By the end of the night she was gone. Suddenly got really sick. She was waiting for a lung/liver transplant because of the Hep C. Insurance was dragging their feet, and it cost her her life.
So now, i feel like the last thoughts my mom must have had about me is what a disappointment i was. I'm usually able to block it out and not dwell, but as with any thoughts, they surface from time to time. Even worse, over 20 years later, now i'm worried about my father dying, he's 80. Still going strong, but old age is old age, no matter what. His mortality is now something to deal with. No longer 21, now 37 and i fear facing the same feelings with him. That his last thoughts of me will be the same as my mothers must have been. Since my life is not really any better than it was back then. I'm not much better. What a horrible feeling, facing that in the past, and seeing it come in the future.
 
Immawildthing

Immawildthing

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I just realized that the length of my posts are inversely proportional to how much I think about the subject I'm talking about. So if I read something and find that it gets my mind going on something, I'll make a huge, long post about it. But if it's just something that I read, and only thought about a little bit, I'll only make a short reply.
Of course, I only make short replies when I'm either thinking of something else, or bothered about something. I'll also make short replies if the thread is more like a conversation than an actual thought provoking thread.
And now I find it odd that I only just thought of all this. My mind would usually have wandered by now.
 
lil_christian

lil_christian

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An extension of my previous thought:

The biggest lie Christians believe is that ultimately, God just wants us to be happy so He'll be happy with whatever decision we make because we're happy. And that is a bunch of Baloney Sandwiches. If God's will isn't what you want, you His voice off like the 6 o'clock news because you don't want to listen. Last time I checked that wasn't how walking with God worked. Just ask Jonah.
 
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iTOREtheSKY

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I feel a little sad now after reading Ugly's post,simply because I may have helped stir up such an unpleasant memory about his Mom...in the same breath,it opens my eyes once again to see that so many other's are in pain,or have dealt with something similar or even worse than me. I look at Ugly & see all the wisdom he shares with people in this forum,and even if it would sound cheesy to him,you can see that he has a real love,care & concern for not only other believers,but for unsaved people as well. That always encourages me. I don't ever speak about my Dad,because I don't even know how to describe my relationship with him other than very sparse. I avoided a thread recently posted in the singles forum about having a tryst with your Dad & what came of it,how did you grow? Someone posted about how they had a Dad who was abusive to their Mom,etc...and basically God was the only Father they had. Reading Ugly's post also made me think of how my Mom used to always imagine me & my Dad sitting on a dock fishing when I was older & he was very very old & us talking about God & him getting saved. I do think my Father gave his life to Jesus at some point in his 50's,from what I could tell by a few discussions we had,but our relationship was very frustrating for us both. I reminded him too much of my Mom & he just couldn't let that go...I felt like I could never be what he wanted as a son,because I wasn't gung-ho about the things he was into. I tried to be supportive,but I was a disappointment to him. The long & short of things...the last 12 years he was alive we didn't speak. I found out he was dead,simply because once & awhile I would search the internet for him because he was heavily involved with the Vietnam Vets & was kind of a big deal in their scene & in politics. I saw his obituary online. He'd been dead for over a year. Died peacefully in his sleep the doctors say. His wife & their 5 adopted children & his Father's brother (my Uncle) were the only people named as his survivors. I found 2 articles online of his death & one posted about him on one of his Vietnam sites where his best friend talked about him & his family. I'd met his friend before. So...I suppose it was a fitting tribute to me. I didn't exist. I never was. It was one more thing that ran through my mind the last time I spoke to my Mom before she died. I wonder if she remembered & was disappointed by that too? Between that & my failed marriage,I certainly didn't leave her a proper legacy. I can only hope now,if when people die & go to heaven they don't ever have to remember the pain or sadness or disappointments they had while they were here. This has been a strange day. Sorry to bum people out.:(
 
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Ugly

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No worries. Its good to have these memories surface sometimes. Even if they aren't all pleasant. Keeps it from bubbling up at a later time. And thanks for the things you said. It still sounds weird to hear people say things like that about me, haha. Even though a number of you guys have messaged me and said some really nice things recently.

Sorry to hear about all that with your dad though. Makes me feel helpless sometimes, hearing what people go through and not being able to say, or do, anything. But i'm always willing to listen (and probably offer advice, wanted or not, haha) if you ever need to vent.

Ok, i'm giving Arwen her thread back.
 
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MissCris

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At this point in my day, I would like to submit with word "ventification" as being a real and very applicable adjective. Or is that a verb? A descriptive verb?

It just seems like a lot of ventification going on, and it's kinda neat, in a "I really appreciate you sharing that" kind of way, and not so much in a "morbidly fascinating" kind of way...

Eh...'scuse me, I have to peel a STUPID CAT OFF THE SCREEN DOOR again.
 
lil_christian

lil_christian

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ventification would be a noun. Since it'd be a thing or idea. :p
 
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Powemm

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My youngest son is 22 today.. man time flies!
Meeting him and new girlfriend (has the same name as he does ) who I really like in Edmond at good ole
"outback steak house" ..
The drive is so worth it no matter where your children live ..
Meting at 6:30 ... I better git!!
 
Searching4Truth

Searching4Truth

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If my grandmother dies, that's okay with me. I will miss her and I will be effected by our parting. She, in her best English, would always say: Jesus is good. Jesus lubs everybody. I still need to do my best to control my ties to this world. If I have to jump ship I will...
 
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Shouryu

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I'm a little grouchy right now because I haven't been sleeping much (small addiction to CC might have something to do with that) and I'm at one of my busiest points of the year: the contest rush. Contest a few weeks ago, beginning band contest today, UIL contests next week, the end-of-year concerts the week after that...ugh.

I'm a little tied up lately.
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