Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[iTOREtheSKY]

@ IloveyouGod - That was a great video,ty for posting that. It's funny how I always feel a bit pathetic when I write many of the thing's I do here,but I'm just that type of person to say what's on my mind & heart,even if sometime's I should hold my tongue or thoughts. I guess that's where God's grace truly abounds in my life...helping to make sense of what I have to say,so that I don't sound entirely crazy when I share my thoughts. I think after watching that video too,something else comes to mind,which is the fact that even if God were never again to help me out in any situation,that I should be fine with that,considering all He's already done for me,and in ways I don't even comprehend or see.

 

[IloveyouGod]

It's not pathetic iTOREtheSKY. You are sharing with your brothers and sisters and we all share and that's how we learn from each other. And you already said you still have the wisdom to know what to share and what not to share. I don't remember reading anything you've wrote that was unnecessary to be shared. I've always thought your experiences in life is a good lesson to me one way or the other. Glad you've liked that clip, my friend Christian here on C.C. sent it to me. It was a clip that he watched in church and deeply affected him, so he wanted to share it with me n' I thought to share it with all of you cuz I really liked it too.

The hypothetical idea of God will never help you out again is completely wrong and not true because the truth is that the whole world including your close friends, people who loves you, everyone can change for whatever reason and turn their backs on you EXCEPT God. God will NEVER do it. He will never leave us or forsake us.

@ IloveyouGod - That was a great video,ty for posting that. It's funny how I always feel a bit pathetic when I write many of the thing's I do here,but I'm just that type of person to say what's on my mind & heart,even if sometime's I should hold my tongue or thoughts. I guess that's where God's grace truly abounds in my life...helping to make sense of what I have to say,so that I don't sound entirely crazy when I share my thoughts. I think after watching that video too,something else comes to mind,which is the fact that even if God were never again to help me out in any situation,that I should be fine with that,considering all He's already done for me,and in ways I don't even comprehend or see.

 

[homwardbound]

There are people who have gotten their benefits honestly. And then there's the other 75% taking advantage of it. Most people who are on disability have gotten their disability honestly and really can't work. Then there are some who have disability because of a previous injury that put them on it, but live better than those who work hard and there's really nothing wrong with them anymore. Heck I know someone that did that. I know more people who have it honestly than those who don't, though. A lot of the others, like welfare and unemployment benefits are a joke.

Government benefits were made out of seemingly good intentions, but now, as America's taking advantage of them, the government will soon have the advantage over us, because they'll control our money.

Yes truth there Sister, and there are tares amongst the wheat, we are instructed to let both grow together until the harvest, and then we trust God to sort it all out. He said this because not wanting the wheat to be harmed, Yet the enemy is still trying.
for me I never want to go through what I went through again, yuet I seek to l,earn from it though and have much learned,
Just started Vocational rehab, waiting for my first appt.
Thanks for your honesty

 

[homwardbound]

So true ww_21, I hear you, but remember we ALL sin one way or the other. As in we ALL hurt each other in so many different ways. So let's pray for each other for God to give us love, honesty, wisdom and care for one another and to forgive us our sins. God's prayer says And forgive us our sins as we forgive those who have sinned against us.

That was prayer was before the cross of Christ, what about after the cross, is that prayer filled in Father's sight, are we, those that beleive God forgiven after the death?
So do we still forgive to get forgiven or are we forgiven so we forgive because we are forgiven?
Is there a difference before and after the cross of Christ?

 

[homwardbound]

i grew up being told "it's a woman's prerogative to change her mind".

however, after some ill-fated discussions,, i would advise you not to offer that line, girls. it's much less helpful than you'd think... : )

Trying to tell a woman what to do is a kin to trying to water baptize a cat

 

[abbiejean]

@ IloveyouGod - That was a great video,ty for posting that. It's funny how I always feel a bit pathetic when I write many of the thing's I do here,but I'm just that type of person to say what's on my mind & heart,even if sometime's I should hold my tongue or thoughts. I guess that's where God's grace truly abounds in my life...helping to make sense of what I have to say,so that I don't sound entirely crazy when I share my thoughts. I think after watching that video too,something else comes to mind,which is the fact that even if God were never again to help me out in any situation,that I should be fine with that,considering all He's already done for me,and in ways I don't even comprehend or see.

How are we on the other side of the screen to really know someone if they don't share who they really are?? I get that one has to be cautious on the net, and that's a good thing, but revealing who we really are in my heart provides hope for the struggling individual going through a rough spot. We are overcomers through the power of our testimony. If God can and has and will do it for someone else then praise God, He will do it for me. I don't want perfect people in my life because then I would feel I could never or would never measure up. I want the real deal. The real thing. I'm flawed, imperfect but forgiven, loved and cherished by a great God. Both valleys and mountaintops serve a purpose in walking with the Lord. I'm a literal person. When I read something I take it as that.

I read something in a post not to long ago and the jest of it was if you are rejected because of who you share you are, you never were really accepted. Those that accept what you share, accept you because of who you are in Christ Jesus. Remember bro, He came and walked among them and many times He had to leave because they didn't like what He said. And yet, He loved them, eventually gave Himself for them.

Be encouraged. God is FOR you. He's doing a good work, a perfect work. A diamond isn't created in a day. It takes time. Same with pure gold. During its refining process, it's heated and the dross is scraped from the top. God puts us in circumstances to "scrap the dross."

 

[homwardbound]

Not really sure how to say this, but I'm tired of not posting because I'm afraid of what people will say, and I'm more tired of being all vague about stuff, so...
I left my husband last Saturday and temporarily moved in with my sister.
I'll have an apartment ready for me and my kids within a week or so.
I'll be filing for divorce.

...that about sums it up.

Oh, and I just ate a king size KitKat in under 3 minutes.
So...yep, that's how life is going.

Love you Miss Chris
Please remember this to not get caught back up in
I am not who I think I am, Rather I am who I think you think I am
God loves you and all, regardless of what others say or think

 

[homwardbound]

Ok..let me run something by you all..if you have advice or comments I welcome them.
I used to be really really close friends with a guy,years ago. Once when him & his g/f (who shared a daughter together) were really hurting for money and were having car issues,I told him that I was getting some money from the car accident I was in & that as soon as I got paid from it,I'd be more than happy to give him some money if he still needed it.
So not long after,I got my settlement,and we were driving somewhere & he asked me if my offer was still open,and I said of course,how much do you need? He asked for 1K. without hesitation I told him,no problem,I could give it to him later that day,and he was like,when I get a chance I'll pay you back. I told him "listen..I don't expect to be paid back..if you can,fine...if you can't that's fine too...what's important is you have a working car right now for you & the girls,period."

Not too long after this...maybe 8-10 months..him & his girlfriend split up. They shared custody of the child even though they weren't married,and both him & his ex have gone on to marry other people.
I had lost touch with him until I joined face book a while back...he & I have never connected too much since,as he's not really big into face book,and I no longer have an account.

The guy I am staying with at the moment says that this guy has been asking about me for the past month or so & the guy I am staying with has told him my situation,how messed up my life has sort of been in the past few years,etc. The guy I gave the 1K to kept telling him...give me his phone number I want to talk to him. But I've still not heard from him yet.
The guy I am staying with has his number and says.."Here,you need to call him..and you need to tell him yer' situation and ask him if he can ever repay that money you gave him all those years ago"

I said,"I can't do that,man..that sounds so tacky...it's not like we've stayed close in that time,and what if he doesn't even remember that? I was like 26 around then...so long ago"....He said" Trust me dude,no one forgets someone giving them 1K..just ask him,whats the worst he can do,hang up on ya?"

lol ok..so my question is this...is it wrong or stupid or tacky or ungodly of me to even ask this guy if he could pay me back?
I think I know the answer to this. Hey this is like that head/heart thread...anyways...ummm...
It's not like God hasn't blessed me a hundered fold over the years for helping him out. So I feel kinda selfish.
I mean..yeah,I could desperately use the money now,but is it wrong of me?

Sorry to ramble & sound all pathetic,but I just don't wanna be anything like the servant who was forgiven his debt & then threatened his neighbor for such a pitiful amount. Not that I would threaten him...but I also wouldn't wanna try and guilt someone into "helping" me. Ugh. I need to pray more or something.

Well, call him, you I quarantee do not have to ask him about the money. It is on him whatever he does, you freely gave him the money, be satisfied in that.
Call him see how he is doing, who knows where ir will go. Let him bring up the money, and if does don't over do it's okay either'
If he has means to help you in any way, let him do the offering , mean time chat, l;ove and be. You have a heart for God and God will not and has not left nor forsaken you and never will. Because that is who God is, and you might feel from time to time you take it for granted, but that is not what I see is in you. Thje Spirit of lover (GOD) is in you and you are in the process of learning, God has got a plan Brother listen and do as led

 

[homwardbound]

I am currently confused about the topic of marriage.

Personally, I would rather be married to God over sanyone or anything else, for I have come to know God is the only one to trust 100%

 

[Fenner]

So many wonderful people here on CC. I'm glad you are all a part of my life. Your words can be encouraging, even if I'm not the person going through certain circumstances, it's still nice to see encouragement and read some beautiful words.

 

[ww_21]

So many wonderful people here on CC. I'm glad you are all a part of my life. Your words can be encouraging, even if I'm not the person going through certain circumstances, it's still nice to see encouragement and read some beautiful words.

​We love you big Sister.

 

[lil_christian]

It's odd to think someone you haven't even met can breathe such words of life into you.

 

[ww_21]

​I hope and pray that this turns out to be the case for me as well.

 

[Fenner]

​We love you big Sister.

I love you all too. You younger ladies inspire me. I'm so glad you all don't bend to many of the things in the world like I did when I was your ages.

 

[NodMyHeadLikeYeah]

I'm waiting for my book to get here. I've been waiting and waiting and waiting.


That's really all i had to say about that.

 

[ww_21]

I'm waiting for my book to get here. I've been waiting and waiting and waiting.


That's really all i had to say about that.

What book are you waiting for? I recently ordered one called "The Art of War" but I no longer have any interest in reading it. I wonder if I can return it.

 

[Donkeyfish07]

What book are you waiting for? I recently ordered one called "The Art of War" but I no longer have any interest in reading it. I wonder if I can return it.

You really should give it a read, it's a great book.

 

[lil_christian]

Man....that moment when you get good and bad news from your college of choice. I'm finding out I can do an option of where I don't have to take out loans, I just do a payment plan (two four-month segments). Honestly, that sounds TONS better than taking out loans, because there wouldn't be an interest rate. The thing is...with the money I'll probably be given right now, I'd have to pay almost 4,000 each month. No way am I gonna get that kind of money. I haven't won any outside scholarships, either. Something has to give....whether it's me, the college....I don't know. All I know is prayer is appreciated.

 

[just_monicat]

thanks to everyone who said such encouraging things after i posted about my dr's appt. throwing all that out there gave me a chance for a little catharsis, and i shortly decided that the best thing for me was to get out town, and find a change of scenery. i loaded up my kindle and my snow gear and headed for the mountain.

it's impossible to feel anything but radiantly happy while you're surrounded in white and bright light.

unfortunately, the lifts are closed right now due to storm right now, so there may be a blitzkrieg of posting to ensue. you never know...

thanks again. : )

 

[abbiejean]

Was thinking about you this morning. So good to read your post. Enjoy that time on the mountain.