I hate it when I get all...needy and pathetic.
Part of me is like, "I so got this. Don't worry about me, I can do anything!"
And another part of me is like..."Don't leave me by myself, it's dark and scary and there's monsters under the bed."
Just a thought for you and anyone else that reads this:
Remember when you were pregnant and you found out your baby was surrounded in water (amniotic fluid).
How did that Baby breath, Humans don't live in fluid or water, fish live and breath in water we don't?
How did that Baby eat?
Because Mom breathed for and ate for that baby true or false? Now maybe see this is how we breaqth and eat to, by God the Father of Christ the Son
We all are born dependent and all for about 9 months coming form the womb came from a dark place, and then we are taught to be independent and to trust God, how can we do both?
We are born interdependent on Mom who bore us. And I think this to be transferred to God the creator of all, as us to be dependent in this way:
Father I do not know how you are going to get me through this situation or situations, but today I am exercising Faith (trust) in you that I will get through it "all" thanks to you, your love and Mercy you have for me and all.
Thank you in advance I only need you, trusting while in the midst of adversity.
There is a difference in prayer, one is please, please and please over and over again.
The other is thank you, I know somehow someway you have got my back, sides, front and I am somehow smothered and covered in you, thanks to Son Christ, thank you Jesus
Exercising faith is key over please, please, please that shows doubt when saying please over and over again
God said God would never leave us nor forsake us, that is either true or not
Hope this helps as you are in a big learning curve.