Streams of Consciousness & Thoughts~~~

[MissCris]

I ignore a heck of a lot of phone calls. I never feel obligated to answer. I also don't have voicemail set up, so I don't even know what most people whose calls I ignore called me for. Sometimes this is a bad thing...but sometimes it saves me having to deal with unnecessary drama. For instance, when my past (however recent) drags itself back up out of the grave and tries to call me. Totally don't even want to know.

 

[tourist]

I had a dream that I baked a pie, but when I got it out of the oven, it turned into Kirby- you know, the pink round puffy thing with its own video game- and he (it, whatever) opened his mouth and all these zombie chickens came out and started getting into everything in my house. And my kids thought it was pretty good fun, while I was trying to catch chickens and throw them out the window, and my phone kept ringing and I had to explain the problem ten times...and then the remaining zombie chickens just went up in flames, which I couldn't figure out. Then I saw that my three year old had a flame thrower. I was so very proud...

I bet that dream MEANS something.

Like maybe that I shouldn't eat dinner right before bed.

Too bad it did not turn into an apple pie.

 

[persNickety]

Happy Independance Day, America!

 

[homwardbound]

I lie in bed pondering the life I live. I wonder about all my sins and if they will prohibit me access into heaven. I wonder about things about the Bible, and all the things people say about it. What hurts the most are the mistakes I've made with people. What I'm scared of the most is what may or may not lie after death. My uncertainty is my enemy. I want to get angry, but I don't see the point when no one will understand where I'm coming from. I want to cry, but people will only want me to stop and pretend to care. I wish God would manifest himself in front of me so that I may speak with him face to face. But I'm going to be told that he's not a genie. I want to see him. I want to hear him. I'm not sure about my faith. I'm not sure about my life. I wish I could rip out of my own life and float about invisible. I'm tired of being.

Honesty, that is the beginning to see what is truth over the errors in and of this world that you have well experienced and do hold you accountable for your own errors

you are Justified since you cry out for Mercy, God knowing you are real in your cry, justifies you

Luke 18:10
Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican.

[h=1]Luke 18:9-14Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)[/h][SUP]9 [/SUP]And he spake this parable unto certain which trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and despised others: [SUP]10 [/SUP]Two men went up into the temple to pray; the one a Pharisee, and the other a publican. [SUP]11 [/SUP]The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. [SUP]12 [/SUP]I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. [SUP]13 [/SUP]And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. [SUP]14 [/SUP]I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

So ask you this, do you purposely harm your neighbor ever? Do you ever want to?
So hear in you from God who has taken up residence in you to keep you from harm to others and self, and walk by this hidden voice from God to you to do all in love to others as you have received this love from God to all by Christ the Son

It is by Faith, belief, trust in Father through Son, and one walks as Christ walked
Add any works of yuor own to prove self as many do and have done, and one never gets there, at least this has been what I found out
I tried for years to prove me as a believer, and some accepted me and come did not. In this trying to prove me to others by what I did or did not do, left me empty
Then I heard God say quit trying to prove yourself and I said what? And heard it again quit trying to prove yourself, there is no success in that is there, how have you done so far? I replied failed, failed and failed.
Then I heard will I start to trust God, to improve me?
And oh wow brother what a difference, and not to be proud and or boastful, more important thankful

Hope this helps in your walk
For those that thirst and hunger for righteousness will be filled. Stop self and start the trust to be improved without pride, and walk away from guilt at the same time. I pray you see and be as God has called you to be

 

[homwardbound]

I wish that more drs would be open minded about approving the use of medicinal marjuana for their patients. CBD low THC & Charlottes Web strains have controlled even the most severe epilepsies. I would have go through hoops to get it. I qualify because of my condition, but I would have to get two drs approval and had tried many different meds with no success.

Sister, no matter I see you coming through it all without the need for anything of man's potions, just what I see, you are well, but your thoughts keep you from seeing through to this fact, as I say this learning to be off my own meds?
For I know I will be as well. prayerfully soon, but am willing to wait as God reveals to me when.
Only major one right now is met-foreman for diabetes, and last blood test well reported
Worry I find is the killer

 

[homwardbound]

I can't remember how old exactly I was when I was diagnosed with juvenile diabeetus. This was the time when we had to take insuline through an actual needle and little bottle. It sucked. No. It mega sucked. I cried when when I had to take a dose. Then I later cringed. Then I flinched whenever that tiny spear pinched a vein. No matter how old I got. I hated. I hated knowing I was sick with an invisible disease. The constant monitoring really sucked too. Especially in the earlier years when there was no adjustable pricking mechanism. I hated it. I hated pain. It was extremely unpleasant. This is the part where I wish I had a father to teach m

Listen, closely and hear in you, you have this, I remember my dad when growing up I had yet did not have, was there but not there. I tried and he would not respond except in anger and chase me with his insulin needle, supposedly in jest, yet make one afraid yep.
And later to find out I am diabetic as well, no like, no way, no how
I fought this dislike and fought as it got worse and worse, until I heard stop, accept it, it is what it is for now, and I would never begin the healing process that is available in me from God, until I accept it as is what it is.
Now over the years now, I came to understand this
acceptance is not to accept to heal, rather whether I heal or not, that that does not matter any longer, nor healing if I do or not, that is not the issue at hand. That is waht this world and me, myself has placed on me to worry and stress out over it, which throws me out of the train and derails the train by my emotional outburst in not wanting what is, that is

Some deep though here Brother as God lead to you to see, I trust that will be and you will be free whether you have this earth disease or not. It is only temporary.

Now life after death, if there is none, why even have life here now? God whom we do not see is as real as the air you breathe that you do not see either

God breathed the Breathe of life into Adam and man became a living Soul. Jesus did this to the disciples in John as for the representation for that life restored to us all that choose to believe God and seek this out, as you are doing Hallelujah Brother
So as you are saved by God through Son, then work this out in Faith and see, God is as real as the air we breathe
What we see is temporal, what we do not see is everlasting
Love all in when you are ready to see you will

 

[homwardbound]

I haven't been able to settle on anything tonight...tried watching a movie, but I hate just sitting there. Tried starting another book, but wasn't feeling it. Tried painting, but my hands aren't cooperating tonight.

I keep thinking about the offer I turned down earlier. Not because I want to or wish I had accepted it, but the reasons why anybody would accept a deal like that. The whole "I barely know you and don't even really like you as a person but we can still have sex" type of deal. I find it sad that either person involved is ok with that. I find it sad that I used to be that type of person. It kinda sucks to realize how little I valued myself. Anyway...

I should have eaten dinner. Why didn't I eat dinner?! I'm gonna eat dinner.

You are seeing right on through it all, the angels rejoice, for you want it to be real, not superficial, Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[homwardbound]

I can relate on the level that I wish I can just be shown the truth. Call me a cheater or a wimp or whatever, but what would be the point on living to never really know and then be sent to hell? I'm someone who while I would like to have some type of faith, I also want reason and evidence. Typical skeptic, sure. But I really don't want something that would only add onto the pile of many as to where I thought I was living and thinking the right way when reality was that I was not, therefore I wasted all the time that I could've at least try to discover more things and could've lived a different type of life than what was known. It still happens, hence I'm not getting anywhere.

... Oh, sorry, I'm being rude. Mind if I also jump on the bandwagon of uncertainty? :l

Doubt is what started the mess to the world that we all are living in, right back at the day that the serpent caused doubt to Eve and pondered is god hiding something from me, I will know, hey hold on and that fruit from that tree became tempting and she ate, then Adam as well, and deception came to all, through regenerating all thew way to us all here and now. Born of flesh and blood and not the Spirit of God, when we first come out of the womb, we are born in the flesh self-righteous pride attitudes, we all have had and done wrong to others.
So by unbelief this error to be led by self has transferred to all who are born from the womb, except for Christ Jesus alone.
So by belief in what Christ did for us redeemed us to give us new life in Spirit and truth with Father
So we pass from death to life here and now reckoning self dead to flesh with Christ's death in flesh for us.
And then we might God willing see the new life in Spirit and truth and learn to walk this way
Being improved on by God teaching us over mankind, just as Jesus walked this way only did he not? and did he not say he was sending us the comforter to tell us truth over error, and never speak of self as if we are doers, when only God the Father is
Just some food to ponder over, truth sets one free and error keeps one in bondage
So whoever is in bondage might need to re-think their truth you think? Oh and I am stil a work in progress and do not claim to be perfect from me ever. Yet I am perfect from Father's view thanks to Christ

So I enter God's courts with thanksgiving and praise over this and ask to be taught directly from the souce, any one care to join in on this amazing fellowship?

 

[homwardbound]

That's wonderful. Just listening and not trying to fix anyone is the best thing. It's actually a therapeutic technique. The counselor remains silent and it allows (or forces) the client to talk.


My personal technique working with people or clients is to listen and profile the person first. Then I will sift through various modes of counseling and choose the best for the individual. I know I seem very confrontational with people, but when I counsel, I'm very quiet and empathetic. At least at first. lol.

so may I ask, Aimee awesome posts by the way, and do you have anything for me. willing to hear and decide as well
So from where are we to draw our answers or advice to others when finished doing our worldly taught profiling?
Just curious sister, no right or wrong answer I look for iron to sharpen iron, and you I think too right?

 

[Nautilus]

I ignore a heck of a lot of phone calls. I never feel obligated to answer. I also don't have voicemail set up, so I don't even know what most people whose calls I ignore called me for. Sometimes this is a bad thing...but sometimes it saves me having to deal with unnecessary drama. For instance, when my past (however recent) drags itself back up out of the grave and tries to call me. Totally don't even want to know.

I have voicemail but I never check it after I ignore calls. I figure if its important they'll call back. The only calls I answer anymore are roommates or family. Otherwise it's getting screened.

 

[homwardbound]

So! I don't have an ear infection. My doc said it was an allergy thing, and I should monitor it, but not to worry.


She adjusted my insulin to 4 times a day. My numbers have been out of control, so she wants to treat the diabetes aggressively. And I'm game. I'm tired of being sick and tired and feeling like I'm going to throw up. If I don't fix my numbers I could have a heart attack or stroke. I'm only 33. I shouldn't have to worry about stroking out.



Please pray for me. This is a big adjustment and this change is scary and hard.





Thanks for all your prayer and support.

Yes it is, I suggest from personal experience to not go down too quickly as I was over 400 BC at one time and weighed 250
lbs.
I came down slowly for my body to adjust to this newness of not being so incredibly high.
For as I came down i had episodes and when I did I would get a candy bar or and a soda to feel better, which raised me back up. yet was not sick, and so over a period of time in taking it slowly I am at 120 to 180, and the blood test came out well last time and have been taken of of Cholesterol, triglycerides down and under control
So do not know if this will help you, yet I have seen when many crashed when taken down from on high tooo fast

praying for you Sister, I know God will teach you truth over error where you can accept anything on this earth that is bad for you to learn form and get over it
Still have some of my own issues to get over as well, and i remain in trust to God, saying I trust no matter what

 

[homwardbound]

So I'm wondering how much controversy I can cause by saying that I crossed out some things in my Bible earlier today. No joke I really did.

If it makes anyone feel better I used a pencil so they can be uncrossed out later.

None from me, for mankind has rewritten it, and so I see you on your Journey separating truth from error

For one big truth that is a lie in the word in all translations is the word Church in the place of the word Ecclesia

Ecclesia means= called out ones
Church = building and stephan was stoned to death in Acts for saying God does not live in buildings
What is up with that?

Yet the word Church is a commonly used word over being the called out ones, and so if one does not go to Church then they can't be a called our one, that is the bad taste left in one's mouth. every time one gets into troubles, one trhinks they better get to Church and hear the pastor
When the word says in truth this?
[h=1]Hebrews 8:11Authorized (King James) Version (AKJV)[/h][SUP]11 [/SUP]and they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest.

 

[homwardbound]

So I'm wondering how much controversy I can cause by saying that I crossed out some things in my Bible earlier today. No joke I really did.

If it makes anyone feel better I used a pencil so they can be uncrossed out later.

Oh and I am not an iconoclast to tell anyone not to go to Church, rather read the word and ask God to separate truth from error written today in it, by man's translation, whether mankind meant it or not is not the issue

The issue is to get truth separated from error to be free all in all by God by Son

 

[homwardbound]

Why would you do that? Just curious.

Because it could be wise to see mistranslations that we get the thoughts of as truth when it is not truth, in the way I translated it, ever happen to you? I have had and received many over the years in growing up to God's maturity in Spirt and truth. Have seen the errors I received from those Spiritual forces in high places, that keep one from focusing only on Christ's finished work for us, to come to new l;ife here and now in Spirit and truth
Which today is the only way Father can be worshiped in truth, since by Christ at the cross has condemned all sin to the flesh. So why do we as people keep trying to be the best we can be, and not taught to trust God to make as we are made to be by God through Son alone?
I saw once I must prove me to god and others?
Then I heard and see from God to trust God to improve me as and whenever I make a mistake, know I am forgiven an ask to learn from, and not to get forgiven all over again when by Son at the cross I am and you and all are forgiven, at the cross, at the last shedding of blood for forgiveness from God period
Ask God, believe and receive, to see and be taught by God alone, you think?

 

[homwardbound]

will someone please pray for me? things are bad again...

Maybe take this and ask to see past it in truth from god to you, to be able to live above it, maybe sis?
have already prayed for you, and not over and over again, once and know god will come through to you to see to accept whatever is as whatever is. so you can live in contentment to all whether good or bad as it seems to you now

 

[homwardbound]

I've not been awake for even a full hour yet, and already I've accomplished so much...!

I've been repeatedly whacked in the head by a beach ball
I spilled a full cup of coffee on the kitchen floor
I learned that if I pick up a cup of coffee, it helps to ACTUALLY HOLD ONTO IT
I swooped in all super hero style and saved the day twice
I said good morning to a chicken, a tiger, a plastic truck driver, and two children who keep calling me Mom for some reason
I actually poured out the last little bit of milk from the last gallon I bought, One day after it's expiration date, and threw the jug away

Also...someone just knocked on the door, I opened it, nobody was there...but the screen for my window was sitting there. I um...what am I supposed to do with it? It has to be put back from outside. Hmm. HMM I say.

Just so you know the expiration date on milk is for to not be sold after that date, and it is still good for a week or two after that date, just so you know

 

[homwardbound]

I've not been awake for even a full hour yet, and already I've accomplished so much...!

I've been repeatedly whacked in the head by a beach ball
I spilled a full cup of coffee on the kitchen floor
I learned that if I pick up a cup of coffee, it helps to ACTUALLY HOLD ONTO IT
I swooped in all super hero style and saved the day twice
I said good morning to a chicken, a tiger, a plastic truck driver, and two children who keep calling me Mom for some reason
I actually poured out the last little bit of milk from the last gallon I bought, One day after it's expiration date, and threw the jug away

Also...someone just knocked on the door, I opened it, nobody was there...but the screen for my window was sitting there. I um...what am I supposed to do with it? It has to be put back from outside. Hmm. HMM I say.

Just another day in paradise hah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[homwardbound]

I don't know if I can physically and mentally do this and not sleep my life away. But what is the alternative? I need to make a life for myself, I can't rely on finding a mate to help with income, my rent being so cheap, my car not breaking down, nor that my seizures to finally are controlled. There are realities in life that I can't get around. Yes, God may help me in someways. I feel pressed. I should take the manager job even though it already exhausts me and causing smaller seizures, I will need to get on more meds then which effects my memory and energy, possibly mood as well. My life will consist of work and sleep. But then I can pay off debt and be more secure if I need to move or have to get another car.

(Sorry I keep posting about this stuff)

You go girl go, get the poison out, and be healed

 

[homwardbound]

Hi, I'd like to know if there's any other books you can recommend that's similar to this one?

Piercing the darkness, beyond this present darkness, the oath, all by frank peretti, very enlighteningto me anyway

 

[homwardbound]

Very nice. It invokes the image of a child fleeing from a village raid of some sort.

It is the revealing of Spiritual warfare as is what I read