Congrats on spending eternity in Heaven!!! WOOT WOOT!!! I actually personally think its so much harder to be saved and walking in this evil world then before we are saved. We are hated on and judged and the enemy hates us. I read the other day where this lady said, The devil hates God but cant attack him, so he attacks the closest thing, His children! But we have Gods word and His word gives us the armor that we need to fight against the spiritual warfare that we cant see. Walking with Christ, having faith and trust in him is so hard, but its so rewarding. I just know that Im personally struggling with something I really know that God told me and laid on my heart a year ago. I don't see the outcome or see it even coming close and I am totally in a rut of whether or not its worth it anymore. I know it could be years and I feel miserable at times on waiting and hoping.