I have to say at first I was always that girl who thought she never wanted to get married and didn't need anyone. Then I met someone who changed all that, we were together for 6 years and I thought he was it, he was who God made for me and I would spend my life living and growing old with him. Then I found out after 6 years that he was a complete fake... long story I won't bore you.... but basically I learned I wasn't listening to God at all. There were huge red flags but I didn't care, he had a good heart and he could change. God hadn't sent him to me, we weren't meant to be, somewhere along the way as all my friends were getting married I think I convinced myself that staying with him was the thing to do and who better to do it with than the one you are with. He was my best friend and I completely miss that, but there are some great things that have come out of being single as well. My relationship with Christ has grown by leaps and bounds and continues to do so. It has taken me over a year to become comfortable being single, not having someone to tell everything about how your day went, although I am learning I can tell it all to God. It has been hard even thinking about dating and am finding out that it seems there just aren't a lot of good Christian men out there looking around here. But what I am thankful for is this time to reflect and find out where I went all wrong trying to do it all myself. I also realize the patience to wait for the one God has prepared just for me is worth it compared to the way my past relationships have gone. I'm pretty ok with being single for right now as I still feel I'm growing in Christ and He is most assuredly still preparing me as well. I know I'm not ready. But my hope is someday to have that someone to complete me. Someone to share my day, my faith, my God, my dreams with. Someone to grow with, not just physically older but spiritually. I can only imagine the difference two Christians working together can make as compared to one. I pray for God to continue to prepare me as well as the person he is sending to me, if it is in his will. And then I make sure I keep up my end by continuing to grow so that I'll be ready this time when He decides it's time. So I guess to answer I personally love to talk
and would love to have someone to share everything with. But God has shown me I have that in Him, I just wasn't, and still don't always, use Him like I should. But I pray that someday when I have grown in my relationship with Christ, He will send me someone to share it all with while I'm here on Earth as well
