Yes, I have been, and thank you for taking notice of that. It's been a struggle to say the least, but that's why I keep coming back, I'm fighting it off and talking to God about it. He's the one who brought me here in the first place. I feel like myself when I'm on here. So thank you to everyone for being like a "family" to me and helping me through this time. It's just another phase of grief I didn't know about...