I've been engaged for a year, at first I was really excited about marriage, but after time the excitement is gone. I started thinking about a life time commitment and how close I am becoming to God and I don't feel the same about marriage. I have a deep desire to remain single. My fiancé insists that God showed him that I am the one and even with my confession of not wanting marriage he insist that God will give him the desire of his heart and that I am the one and we will be married. I am starting to resent him because its like he forcing something that is really not in my heart or that God hasn't gave me any peace about, has anyone been in this situation where God provided a soul mate or that they just knew the person they were with was or was not the one for them.
I'm going to play devil's advocate for a moment here. It's just a suggestion, but perhaps it's something worth thinking about.
Obviously you don't want to get married at the moment, and so, getting married in haste would be a silly move, as much as breaking up with your fiancée will hurt him, but I noticed you said the excitement about marriage is gone. And I hear this ALL the time.
People split up with their partners because 'the excitement is gone', or 'there's no passion anymore'. But what people don't realize, is that the excitement and passion of the initial courting and engagement periods never lasts, for anyone. And at this point people think 'I don't love them', or 'I don't want this'. But the truth is, it will never last in relationships.
Relationships, after a while, tend to develop more into a comfortable setting. There is a deeper, more attached, understanding compassion that comes as opposed to the fiery, butterflies-in-your-tummy excitement that first swelled inside you.
And after the initial stage, passion takes communication and effort. It sometimes requires taking a few nights off to allow each of you time to miss each other, and then doing something special together; going to new places, seeing new things, walking hand-in-hand in new directions.
Relationships take work and commitment, and there will be moments of that intense excitement again, if you are willing to create them and give your partner a chance.
You wouldn't be engaged to him if you didn't love him, but what you need to realize is you are stepping forward into a new kind of love. It's nothing to be afraid about. It's nothing to fear.
Give your partner some time. Invest yourself and give to him. That's what partnership is about; the giving. And if after a month or two, of putting yourself out and creating these moments and doing things together, you mind still says 'don't get married', then don't get married.
But I just think your partner deserves a chance. It sounds like you've come to this conclusion within a few weeks. And really, after a year of engagement and being together for who-knows-how-long before that, I think you should give both you and your partner some time to think about this and let it breathe for a bit. And have some fun together!!