I'm having similar feeling right now with my life brokenangel :'(
I just have so much uncertainty in my life right now, and I'm just really worked up over things.
I can also relate to you as I suspect I'm ill, but my father refuses to take me to the doctors as I've had past visits where nothing was found. and now I feel like I'm dying. I'm not ready to die as there are many people in my life I'm very important too.
and I've sinned a lot, but have repented, asked for forgiveness and everything.
but my emotional and physical pains/feeling like im literally dying thoughts haven't subsided.
I'm embarrassed and ashamed to really open up about how I've sinned, so I'm unsure if I could be helped
I'm hoping this is a wakeup call we both recover from.
God bless you brokenangel! I hope in the end of what we are going through, we are both okay.
There's a lot I can relate to in what you wrote as in what we are feeling.
I'm kind of an emotional wreck now, and I'm not thinking very well, but i hope you can understand what I wrote.