There are days where I actually want to fall in love with you. But, from what I understand that sort of love isn't practical. I often wonder if I do commit to you, what sort of slave would I be to those around me? I'm still learning and growing. I'm still making mistakes and I don't want to look at you as if you were just one of many. I'm not sure what kind of lover I would be if I do confess to you. As much as I want, they want as much as I do. It's just best if I continue to give til it hurts. As I look around the mess I've created for myself, I can understand that I won't be what you truly deserve. I can die for you, and even that won't be enough to show what true love is. I can throw you all the things this world has to offer, but even that won't compare to what a real man can do for you. What I believe, what I'm taught and told is that only God can fill that vacancy inside you that no other can. Only He can fill that empty space inside you. It's not healthy for me to dwell on you. It's not natural for a slave to want a princess. It just wouldn't be right if I chose to love you under these circumstances. Maybe, it just isn't right for me to think about you. Maybe it isn't right for me to waste my time writing letters that you'll never see. Maybe I should just keep my love for those I slave for. For those that I continue to encounter. In any case, I pray God continues to bless your life with that strength I see in your eyes.