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It's not that I don't want to be a mother. I love both my babies, and they give my life direction and purpose.
But today...after a long stretch of difficult days....which followed several fairly difficult months...
*sigh*
I had never imagined motherhood being necessarily easy- I wasn't foolish enough to think having a baby (or two) would be a piece of cake.
But I had no idea...days like today...days like yesterday, and the day before...
I can't even form a coherent thought right now. I just feel like giving up...which I would never do to my kids, of course, but in a way it's even more frustrating because I know I'll just keep on keeping on until I lose my mind.
I don't even know how to ask for help at this point, because I'm used to just doing it myself.
But today...after a long stretch of difficult days....which followed several fairly difficult months...
*sigh*
I had never imagined motherhood being necessarily easy- I wasn't foolish enough to think having a baby (or two) would be a piece of cake.
But I had no idea...days like today...days like yesterday, and the day before...
I can't even form a coherent thought right now. I just feel like giving up...which I would never do to my kids, of course, but in a way it's even more frustrating because I know I'll just keep on keeping on until I lose my mind.
I don't even know how to ask for help at this point, because I'm used to just doing it myself.