then it may take decades for you to see that He does care about you personally
i wouldn't expect a couple of days of posting back and forth to convince you anyway; all i can do is give you my point of view.
i apologize again if i come off as overbearing or hostile. i have to speak from my own perspective, and if i sounded like i was ridiculing you, it's ideas and perspectives i'm ridiculing, ideas and perspectives i once held and since rejected, not you.
in the end the onus is on God to to do the work in people's hearts, and as anyone can tell you, sometimes He does it in an instant, and other times it takes a lifetime before the picture is complete. what He wants from people is trust, and then the obedience that trust produces. in very few cases in the bible (Moses, Daniel.. maybe a couple more) did God ever give a human even a semi-complete picture of His plans before He asked them to go somewhere or do something, and much more often than not what He asked people to do was completely contrary to reasoning, and there wasn't substantial 'proof' for them until after they did what He asked, sometimes not even in their lifetimes.
what's different about the bible from a random person on the street asking you to put on a tin foil hat is that it was written over a period of thousands of years, and includes very specific prophesies that made no sense at the time, but were born out later. the fall of Babylon and myriad other ancient kingdoms, in specific detail. Alexander the Great and the specific way in which his empire was divided. the coming of Christ. the Persian empire. there is no other book on earth like this; it's not without credentials.
