Confession Thread.

iraasuup · Feb 11, 2014

My rant/confession whatever you wanna call it:

I really can't stand people calling me 'religious'. I am NOT religious (look up the definition of the word), I'm a CHRISTIAN. I have a RELATIONSHIP with Christ, I'm not bound by a laundry list of rules and regulations. I live under a grace, not a law. Sure, there are laws by which we are governed both laws of the land, and God's laws, but it is BECAUSE of my love for Christ that I want to live by those laws. I understand the repercussions of making poor choices, but I also understand that God knows best. He desires the best for me, but He also gave me free will.

It is with that free will, and an understanding of the great sacrifice He made and the experiences of His blessings upon my life that I choose to live a life set apart from the world. I trust in Him to lead me and guide me. I'm not perfect, I never will be, because I'm human, and I live in a sinful world, but contrary to popular opinion I'm not 'BOUND' by laws and rules, but rather I'm SET FREE by a grace which surpasses all human understanding. I won't always make the right choices, but I know God is always with me and I trust Him to guide me on the right path. I don't go around telling people what they should and shouldn't believe, but when I'm asked why I believe what I believe, I will gladly share.

It is my desire that I will simply live in a manner reflective of Christ's glory. I hope He shines through me in all I do, that people see something different about me. Isn't that intrinsic in itself? I hope my life is evidence of God's amazing grace. I don't have to go around 'shoving' my beliefs down other peoples throats, and to be honest that is the LAST thing I want to do, I just want my life to reflect Christ, and that in itself is a witness and testimony to those around me.

So, please don't call me 'religious'. I am far from it. I'm a woman with a heart after God. I don't practice rituals and traditions, but rather I (try at least) to practice Godliness. I have a relationship with my heavenly Father, the saviour of the world and I choose to live my life as a testament of his great glory!

Blessings.

Liamson · Feb 11, 2014

I didn't think I was a jealous person... but, I don't even know if this qualifies as jealousy.

I discovered that one of my friends recently moved her boyfriend into her house.

Most of our conversations would be 20-40 minutes, usually. Which given that she is a pretty busy person, this is extraordinary. She uses me for a lot of creative brainstorming for projects she is working on. So usually its about a 50/50 personal/professional friendship.

However, our last couple of skype calls I've cut short because I can't stomach the idea that someone who had so much going for them, just decided to move her boyfriend in. Literally for the last 3 weeks, its been 5 minutes tops.

I'm not sure there was some subconscious attraction maybe, I don't know. But now, it is conscious repulsion.

But maybe since we had so much in common in our creative thought processes, I have simply projected my own expectations and values onto her decisions.

Maybe its different because I usually feel pretty alienated by other people's thought processes. And when I don't I expect too many conclusions to be the same. But they really can never be. Maybe in the short term it works, but deeper and more long term, it doesn't work.

Maybe we're just all unique butterflies, and I am nuking it into the ground trying to make heads or tails of it.

Jullianna · Feb 11, 2014

I share your feelings about the word "religious", Katie. It's so...general and far below what I consider my walk with Christ to be. I religiously brush my teeth, clean my house, exercise and buy purses/shoes.

Religious:

1. believing in a god or a group of gods and following the rules of a religion
2. very careful to do something whenever it can or should be done

God is FAR more than Someone in Whom I believe and my walk with Him is far more than following a set of rules. He deserves more than my being "religious". When I see the word I immediately think of the Pharisees, who apparently BELIEVED in God and followed a bunch of rules, yet many of them were so very far from Him.

Better words: Passionate, Devout, Reverent

NightRevan · Feb 11, 2014

theneko said:

Hi theneko, I hope you read this and I hope this video helps a little (I remember having watched it before due to looking through OCD related videoes, I suffer from an OCD condition called Scrupulosity a religious version which did make my Christian life very difficult, but it has brought to realise just how strong His love and faithfulness is, it just how much everything depends on Him, but not important here, just clarification

) and I hope it helps you in this area at least, it's from a fellow Christian who suppers Asperger's Syndrome:

On Asperger's Syndrome and Christianity - YouTube

NightRevan · Feb 11, 2014

Countess said:

Hi Countess, it seems that you have been hurt by some Christians in the past, I won't play the easy card of saying they weren't real Christians because maybe they were, but sadly we are still broken people who are all works in progress, being repaired, and sometimes in fact it can bring out in God's light the worst aspects in our broken nature, and they can resist His draw to repair that. Also sometimes (and it is a deadly deception) people become deceived into thinking it they are behaving in religious ways just by themselves they please God - read the judgement of the sheep and goats in Matthew 25:31-46 (without getting into discussion of use of apocalyptic language in 2nd Temple Judaism or whether the Lord was warning Israel of the path they were walking, His vindication and the 70 AD destruction of Jerusalem - my understanding of it's initial and primary meaning - or it really does refer to an aspect of the final judgement which is an interpretation I understand and I know many prefer) as well as other places. And I'm sorry you have been hurt by this, but you have clearly come on this site for a reason, something is bothering you and has motivated you join here, so if you want to talk, even if it's just to shout at me as a symbol of all you hate about what you think the church is (and sadly sometimes has become) and Christians, I'm here, you can pm me and I'll listen and attempt to understand your issues and talk to you.

Anyway, I hope God blesses you, and that if follow the call of Jesus Himself, and listen to Him, and learn from Him and not necessarily Christians (real or not) who have failed to act in His love and compassion. So I hope you are well, and I hope your time of this site still manages to bring insight and healing to you.

Fenner · Feb 11, 2014

I'm having a bad day. If I could I'd go out and have some bartender mix me up an Appletini and call it day. But I don't do that, so whatever.

rachelsedge · Feb 11, 2014

Confession: I just ate a whole bowl of popcorn...frog-style. This is when you stick your tongue out, the pieces stick to it, and then you stick it back in and eat the captured popcorn. It works with other foods, but especially popcorn.

I held the bowl with one hand, browsed CC with my mouse on the other hand, and just...ate popcorn without using my hands.

I have no shame.

Grace-Like-Rain · Feb 11, 2014

rachelsedge said:

I wonder if I could eat this piece of pizza like that... O_O

just_monicat · Feb 11, 2014

Grace-Like-Rain said:

hmmm... i'd enjoy watching you attempt that one. : )

ServantStrike · Feb 11, 2014

rachelsedge said:

You should totally do that at a restaurant. Like a Mcdonalds or something.

Grace-Like-Rain said:

Cut it in smaller pieces first. Also, be sure to have some water handy in case of choking.

just_monicat · Feb 11, 2014

confession:

i'm a terrible joke teller. no matter how hard i try, i always end up giggling through the punch line. i can't help myself!

apparently that ruins it. but for whatever reason, i keep trying. on clients, no less. i get the sense they're laughing at me, not with me.

it's my secret shame. : )

Fenner · Feb 12, 2014

I'm going to confess that I don't always feel like I measure up to being a good wife and Mom. Please those of you who think this should go in the family thread this is a confession, I'm confessing my thoughts.

There are days like yesterday when I just don't feel like I measure up, I compare myself to others constantly. It may not seem like it, but I do. Both of my kids behaved horribly yesterday, I wanted to cry. That isn't the first time. As my son grows it's harder to deal with it. I love them unconditionally, but there are times I don't feel cut out of the job.

That's the truth and that's what I'm dealing with, that's my confession. If you feel like that should be in the family forum, you can cut and paste it in there. Thank you.

abbiejean · Feb 12, 2014

Fenner said:

Nope, nothing wrong with being human and sharing from the heart.

I had those kinds of days when married to a minister. I carried a very heavy, very private load of "am I doing this right?" "am I what this man needs as a wife and working along side him?" Then, after I was widowed, I put that load down and picked up "am I good enough to be in the classroom with the kids as their teacher?"

I get what you're saying, Fenner. Want to know something? Because you have those feelings, you are sensitive and in my book, the very best.

You want to better, to be the best for your family. I applaud you.

God is good.

With a thankful heart,
Abbie Jean

abbiejean · Feb 12, 2014

just_monicat said:

I've done that too.

Have also been so embarrassed, red faced, because I didn't get what everyone else did with a joke. LOL

God is good.

With a thankful heart,
Abbie Jean

rachelsedge · Feb 12, 2014

Fenner said:

I don't think it belongs in the Family forum, this is the confession thread, after all.

I'm not sure how old your children are, or if this will make you feel better...

I'm sure my parents felt that way sometimes. My brother and I would fight all the time (though we're super close now), there was a time in the fourth grade where I didn't want to go to school and I must have had some sort of...mental battle going on inside because I remember writing on a piece of a paper over and over "I wish I was dead", and my dad got very upset at me. I was fine after a while, and I honestly don't remember why I wrote that. A bout of depression, maybe? In fourth grade, I know, it was strange. My brother was a pretty difficult child. I'm sure they questioned themselves a lot, and my dad is a pastor, so there was extra pressure there. My dad and brother had a strained relationship at times, not really bad, but...enough. My mom and I would butt heads sometimes. Man, looking back though, I was just stupid.

Now we are all extremely close. We always have been, but families change and grow.

Now that I'm older...I see their mistakes, but I also really, really appreciate them more for all that they did for me and still do as parents. I think that comes with time and age. Sometimes I wish I could go back into my childhood and change how I behaved at times, and appreciated them more, but that's because I'm 23 and can see it more clearly now. I know that when each of us kids moved out (though now I've moved back in, heh) that they wondered whether they had done all they could to prepare us, if they could have done more, done something different.

But, I think as long as you love them and teach them with respect and Christ-like love, then you're doing a good job. There will be days that you fail, or feel like you're failing. There will be days when the kids will fail at being good children. Sometimes love is a battle, and it's hard. But it's worth it.

Also, for the record, I think you worrying about it shows how much you care. There are some parents who don't care, and so they don't worry how they're doing.

Anyway, hopefully that was a tiny bit encouraging.

Fenner · Feb 12, 2014

Thanks Rachel and Abbie Jean those words are very encouraging. I don't want to sound dense but sometimes I still say to myself, I had no idea how hard it is, I am talking about being a parent. I don't know why I thought it would be just this natural thing. I guess I used to hear a lot, oh it will just come naturally. Well when your kid is melting down and screaming, what do you naturally do? Especially since he's almost as tall as I am and he's only 8 years old.

It's hard and my Husband understands but he see's a different side. Like he isn't here when this stuff happens. He isn't at the park when one kid takes off and the other won't come off the swing and you can't just run to get the one that took off. He works and I'm grateful, sometimes I wished I was the one who worked and he could deal with this. I don't want to screw them up. That's my thing, I just want them to grow up and be respectful, God loving, caring, independent human beings.

The other day they had a fight and I literally had to pull them apart. It was nuts. I've never had to pull them off of each other before. My Daughter is small, she's skinny and petite, I worry that he could hurt her. My son is a big boy, he's a strong boy. He's not a mean boy but seriously I don't think he knows his own strength. We've talked at length with him that he is not to hit, well actually both of them. My brother and I used to wallop each other, I don't want them doing that.

Then they fight over this petty stuff, I know it's normal for siblings, but pencils and over math problems. No this is what 32 plus 12 equals, they fight over that, then they ask me, one of them is right one of them is wrong and it's like a dramatic math nightmare.

I hope they grow up and get along.

kenthomas27 · Feb 12, 2014

rachelsedge said:

After about 14 hrs. of work with this storm - clearing ice, spreading salt, clearing trees, being wet/cold - it's warming to know that the tough subjects are still being tackled here at CC. How else can one type their message and eat popcorn except to use their extraordinarily long tongue. A multi-tasker is what you are you widdle waskely amphibian you. You widdle polywog without a cause.

[video=youtube;tqCS0Lj4PeI]http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=tqCS0Lj4PeI[/video]

kenthomas27 · Feb 12, 2014

Fenner said:

Thanks Rachel and Abbie Jean those words are very encouraging. I don't want to sound dense but sometimes I still say to myself, I had no idea how hard it is, I am talking about being a parent. I don't know why I thought it would be just this natural thing. I guess I used to hear a lot, oh it will just come naturally. Well when your kid is melting down and screaming, what do you naturally do? Especially since he's almost as tall as I am and he's only 8 years old.

It's hard and my Husband understands but he see's a different side. Like he isn't here when this stuff happens. He isn't at the park when one kid takes off and the other won't come off the swing and you can't just run to get the one that took off. He works and I'm grateful, sometimes I wished I was the one who worked and he could deal with this. I don't want to screw them up. That's my thing, I just want them to grow up and be respectful, God loving, caring, independent human beings.

The other day they had a fight and I literally had to pull them apart. It was nuts. I've never had to pull them off of each other before. My Daughter is small, she's skinny and petite, I worry that he could hurt her. My son is a big boy, he's a strong boy. He's not a mean boy but seriously I don't think he knows his own strength. We've talked at length with him that he is not to hit, well actually both of them. My brother and I used to wallop each other, I don't want them doing that.

Then they fight over this petty stuff, I know it's normal for siblings, but pencils and over math problems. No this is what 32 plus 12 equals, they fight over that, then they ask me, one of them is right one of them is wrong and it's like a dramatic math nightmare.

I hope they grow up and get along.

if you'd like I could babysit...

Fenner · Feb 12, 2014

If that were really you, I'd say I don't like the eyeliner and do something with the hair.

lil_christian · Feb 12, 2014

Okay. CC keeps on breaking on me. But I made a screen shot of the confession. So I'm going to just attach it onto here instead of typing it all over again.

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