Wow...this took some thought.
THE QUESTION:
What was the most revealingly personal moment in your walk with the Lord?
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About a year after God brought amazing changes into my life and gave me such passion for His Word, odd things began to happen. Things I could not explain.
EXAMPLES:
- I felt that God was "telling me" to go see my supervisor who was in the hospital and tell her something very specific. I didn't want to. It kinda freaked me out. I kept arguing about it, even while riding up to her room on the elevator. When I entered her room, the thing I'd been told to say came out of my mouth. (Jeremiah 20:9) Word for word. She began to cry, thanked me for coming and it changed her view about God. She died soon after.
- I had cleaned out closets and had a trunk full of men's clothing that I intended to take to Goodwill, but something kept telling me to wait. I waited. Weeks. Then one evening I was led to a CERTAIN location to a CERTAIN person who needed them. After I gave the things to the homeless man who was riding his bike, I looked up and saw something that was an answer to a prayer I'd been praying for quite some time. Something I'd forgotten about, but God had not.
As some of you know, as a teen I had attempted to take my life. I don't want to go into that, but the short version is that I did hear God's voice telling me that if I did that, I would go to hell. It was not an angry voice, just a stern, matter of fact warning - a "this is how it will be" thing. I stopped what I was doing, went to bed and nothing like that ever happened again.
These are three examples of what I'm talking about. It was....weird. I began to pray, asking why this was happening. I didn't know who to talk with about it (did not have a church at the time; had been doing intensive Bible study on my own). I had so many questions. And then He answered me....He said two things:
1. Read 1 Samuel
2. Call your mother
I did both.
I told my mom long distance what'd I'd read about Hannah and Samuel, and that God had told me to call and ask her why I'd been led to that passage. It was a few moments before she was able to speak because she was crying. When she calmed down a bit she reminded me of something she'd told me when I was younger. When I was around 3 years old, my mom was in a car accident and suffered a severe head injury, for which they'd given her phenobarbital. While everyone was sleeping, I went into her purse and ate almost all of them. I was unconscious by the time they found me. We were staying with my gramma (a nurse) while mom recovered (my parents were divorced by then), so they immediately took me to a local doctor (the hospital was too far away). The elderly doctor sent his other patients home and worked to save my life all afternoon. He allowed my gramma to stay because he needed the help, but my mom was sent out of the room.
Mom said that she paced the hall all afternoon, praying and crying out to God. She told Him essentially the same thing Hannah did, that if He would give her me, she would give me back to Him for His purposes.
No one expected me to live. No one expected me to function normally if I did.
I had known about getting into her purse and taking her meds, but knew nothing of the details or of her very personal experience that day. When she'd finished I was in tears and could barely speak. There was nothing to say.
We all have a purpose in the Kingdom of God. We all have questions. We all have different experiences/functions within the Body of Christ. We also all have moments of doubt. But, if we diligently seek Him, He is faithful to answer and reveal in HIS time. Whenever I doubt. Whenever I question. Whenever life tries to beat me down, I remember this. I remember Whose I am. I know that I know that I know I belong to I AM.
Let this life within me cry that I know my Redeemer LIVES
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