Ty homwardbound, for being Real.
he love of God can never be rude, it is what causes man to repent and believe God, nothing else ever worked in the First Testament, in condemnation ever, Mercy did and does to this very day, even if some do take it for granted, Mercy is the only thing that effected me, remembering in the day of being a drunk and sluggard, and seeing God's Mercy on me, and knew what I deserved, and asked why all in all was God being kind to me, and it was not that I did not have troubles, but i felt God was having Mercy on me and I did not deserve it, in all I was doing, this is just how I felt
Then I read his kindness is meant to lead me to repentance, so I repented and tried to do what is right, and found out I could do what is right to a certain point, and just could not get it all right, be perfect that is and wanted to be.
So I got caught up in this world's view of repentance, in asking for more forgiveness each and every time I sinned. Thus being focused on whether I sin or not, and oh wow, what a surprise to a wretched man I am and so I went all out to be all I could be, full of stress, worry and not at peace, in trying so hard to be perfect
i do not know if anyone else can relate to this, but this is what happened to me
Then one day I heard that i was forgiven by God through Christ and that there is no more forgiveness from God to be executed to me from God if I sin or not.
perplexed by this as I thought of me as such a good Christian, trying real hard to appear righteous, in front of the Church I was attending at that time, and hiding my sins from them, and asking God to forgive me over and over for the prior sins I had committed that weak, Tis was an ongoing adventure each and every week for me for a few years. And victory was not happening in this method of operation, that seems to be taught often to us the laymen by the pastors that are to be oracles of God instructed by this world's laws.
So I called up this ministry, to give them a ration of my mind and the error they are in, that we need if we sin to ask God for more forgiveness, and that if we are not forgiven we do not go to Heaven, and trust me I want to go to Heaven.
Well this is what happened, I said my peace and got this challenge said to me. Go to the Bible and find me anyplace in there after Christ's death, anywhere that says we are to ask for more forgiveness if we sin or not sin again after you have received the forgiveness at the cross, where the forgiveness is provided to all through the shed blood of Christ?
Immediately I went to 1 John 1:9. This is what I heard, and was asked if I believe Christ came in the flesh, born of the virgin Mary and went to the cross in the flesh and died for the sin of thew world and is risen alive today forever more?
I said yes, then I was asked is there anymore sin left for you to be judged on to die for then? I no how can there be if (since) he died for all sin (John 1:29)
And then I was asked is there or has there ever been any sin ever forgiven without the shedding of blood?
I said no, not per the word no
Then I asked if Christ is ever going to come back to shed anymore blood for anymore forgiveness? I said no it is done isn't it?
When I saw this my troubles were not over as a matter of fact they got worse, and why is this, because now I was in a fight of my own flesh and the Spirit of God, that just dos not want to let go and just trust God and rest in that
Finalizing the cross, where we are truthfully forgiven, is a step into truth, and the battle really begins, because now Father is revealing the truth and showing us the new life in the resurrected Christ, Father has for us a free gift to us, in Spirit and truth
So how easy is it to transfer from a life time of flesh efforts to be good when can't truthfully ever be good not complete anyway.
You see we all you want to do good have spent a lifetime in these efforts and by a practice if practiced long enough does it become a habit? Once a habit if continues, a habit becomes a characteristic, then a trait, yes or no?
So if one finalizes they are forgiven and sees it is all God and none of our self efforts that makes us right with God, Does a battle begin?
I came to the end of the energy of me doing what is right. raised my white flag in I give up, I can't do this, and that is when the battle of flesh and Spirit was over, I me, my flesh gave up, and Father through Son won
Praying anyone else going through this battle sees though to home Heaven, where we worship in Spirit and truth only from our new hearts Father has given us in Spirit and truth
The truth sets one free and will be free indeed, just don't give up to see through, for you will, if you beleive God and stand fast in this