First, thank you for more book recommendations. I will be looking for new ones you suggested and ask my husband about the one for him.
I really like the point you made here. I am ashamed to say that I did get angry about the situation that I have been going through at work. I was angry about what another person did and I was angry because I thought the punishment was too lenient.
With the help of my husband and my pastor, I realized that my anger at the situation showed a lack of faith on my part. Our Father knows all that happened and He is the only one who should judge----I should not judge the other person and surely not decide what the punishment should be. I let evil into my mind and I was so ashamed for that.
I have prayed and repented for my lack of faith. I have given this situation over to God entirely and I feel such a burden lifted from my soul. I can only give Him praise for forgiving me and taking this terrible weight off my shoulders and giving me peace again. I have also been saying extra prayers to keep the evil one away from me or to make me aware of his presence so I do not fall back into the anger and bad thoughts. Satan is a crafty one, I am so thankful that I have the strength of God on my side.
Sister read Jonah, how he went to Nineveh and preached to them, as he came out of the bid fish, after running from God to not go there, knowing there evil, the God a Merciful God would turnb away his wrath if they would repent to not do evil and believe God
Now to understand one thing is the Ninevites worshiped the fish and here comes Jonah out of the belly and says to them turn or burn
And they repented and Jonah was pissed that they repented, from Chapter 4 this is explained, and time for God to deal with Jonah as Jonah set up camp outside the city to watch and see what would become of Ninevah.
Jonah even said to God he knew the Mercy and how the ninevites do not deserve Mercy as this person you talked about that you got angry with, as you are not alone in this Sister.
So after understanding, what Jonah was mad about in not understanding God's undeserved Mercy to Nineveh, God Showed Jonah comfort at first by the plant that grew over to shadow Jonah and comfort him, then God caused a worm to eat the plant that gave Jonah comfort in shade and caused a wind to stretch over him with heat to not comfort him, to show him his own pride as if he is righteous and is not and that God who made all, can give Mercy or not as God chooses
We are first born flesh and are taught to be God, by what we do or do not do, which in essence gets one to strive to do good, and that is good in itself, yet sets flesh ourselves up for pride, and desires of getting pats on the backs from others, and self righteousness as you just went through and are now humbled, praising God for this victory of God through you, as the thought comes of flesh to praise self as if this is your victory, and it is not ours it is God's alone through you believing God to cause you to stand, with the help of others for you to see. Again now here comes flesh for us to put our Faith in a Pastor, a Friend, a Church and so on and so forth.
The evil can care less if I go to Church, if I get counseling, if I read the word to know God, as long as this evil can keep my eyes off of just trusting God, through Christ, In other words as the Pharisees said to Christ their Father is Abraham, and Christ said immediately if Abraham was, then they would believe in Christ as the only way, the only truth to Father for new life in Spirit if one sees them-self as dead in Spirit and needs this to live, then one will ask
Who will I ask, My Friend, my Church, my Pastor, my Husband and everyone I see around me and get all kinds of answers right?
Why not go to the source, the same as a toaster can't do it's job it was created to do, without electricity it's source to be able to do
So Just ask God to plug you in and listen as you go in this life to what God says inside you and be set free as is what he came to do was and is to set us free from worry, bondage and stress. To walk in the new life dead top old self and alive to new self in Spirit and truth, where we only trust, Father to do in us and through us what flesh can never do and that is be perfect.
God through Son accomplished that for us, to us by trusting in his finished work to us, we thus walk in freedom and just love all, especially those that do us or others wrong, knowing that God's Mercy leads to repentance, as is what brought you and Husband to beleive and search out the whole truth
I know that is what brought me into the kingdom was the kindness I got in the midst of troubles I caused, I saw it should have been death to me, period and God was kind to me in spite of, I \was and can easily be again A Jonah and feel and think I am better than those Ninevites, Thanking God God always sends either comfort or takes it away for us to learn, that we are not better than anyone else and since he has poured out his Mercy on us completely forgiven, how can I not forgive or love all, and ask God for God's words to work through me, me that old flesh selfishness out of the way and just be amazed at God's work through, those that just trust in thanksgiving and praise
So I quit for now, I can go on forever, why? Because God made me alive forever, thanks for anyone reading and seeing it is all God and we are no more than vessels to be available for God to use us