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My story...I was married 10 years ago to who I thought was an amazing Christian man. He started to become angry about everything..outbursts, then putting me down, name calling. He became paranoid and wouldn't believe me and started accusing me of cheating, taking money...almost any and everything wrong. I never did anything he accused me of, I became confused, sad and upset for the way he was treating me. If I stood up for myself he them would get physically abusive...I was heartbroken that my dreams have turned into a nightmare. I held it together and lived through this for the first 2 years, praying for God's direction and answers.
I left after those 2 years, we both were in counseling, he was sorry and said he wanted to change. I stayed separated though I gave him a chance and supported him in every effort he made. Though the next 7 years were just that...I knew from his outbursts , anger and other episodes it wasn't safe or even healthy to live with him. The last year he has been getting more agitated and less wanting to work on the abuse issues. I am stronger, hearlthier and NO ONE deserves to be abused. Because of the long time separation, I have graciously sacrificed financially and let him keep most of the money he was supposed to pay me for me and the children. I wouldn't even mind if it would have helped our marriage...though recently he told me that "I don't deserve money from him".(Another put down from him) I have financially supported our 5 children the mostly soley because they live with me.
He is not seeking to change anymore and is going back to anger, blaming, and accusing me. I have sacrificed so much mentally, physically, emotionally and financially that I can't do it unless he is serious about changing. I prayed for God's direction and what I heard God tell me is to "set bounderies". This is difficult because I decided to file for divorce to protect myself financially, physically and perhaps emotionally too. I still love and care for him deeply, though like I said I need to protect myself. He will be notified in the next week or two that I filed...I am a bit worried his reaction. Please pray that we stay safe and that he is respectful and doesn't try to hurt me or the children in any way. Please also pray that God gives my strength, peace and favor through this difficult process. Thank you. God Bless!
I left after those 2 years, we both were in counseling, he was sorry and said he wanted to change. I stayed separated though I gave him a chance and supported him in every effort he made. Though the next 7 years were just that...I knew from his outbursts , anger and other episodes it wasn't safe or even healthy to live with him. The last year he has been getting more agitated and less wanting to work on the abuse issues. I am stronger, hearlthier and NO ONE deserves to be abused. Because of the long time separation, I have graciously sacrificed financially and let him keep most of the money he was supposed to pay me for me and the children. I wouldn't even mind if it would have helped our marriage...though recently he told me that "I don't deserve money from him".(Another put down from him) I have financially supported our 5 children the mostly soley because they live with me.
He is not seeking to change anymore and is going back to anger, blaming, and accusing me. I have sacrificed so much mentally, physically, emotionally and financially that I can't do it unless he is serious about changing. I prayed for God's direction and what I heard God tell me is to "set bounderies". This is difficult because I decided to file for divorce to protect myself financially, physically and perhaps emotionally too. I still love and care for him deeply, though like I said I need to protect myself. He will be notified in the next week or two that I filed...I am a bit worried his reaction. Please pray that we stay safe and that he is respectful and doesn't try to hurt me or the children in any way. Please also pray that God gives my strength, peace and favor through this difficult process. Thank you. God Bless!