...this is difficult. It really is. It's choosing to live my will, or live God's will.
I must be very, very, very honest, and again, sorry if you are offended. I
am real, and must continue to be, for the sake of truth.
This post must have hit some people the wrong way, and I accept the responsibility
for my actions. I knew what I was doing bringing this subject up, and as such, accept
the possible view I may have against me.
I am currently reading the bible, and up to 1 Kings in the Old Testament, learning of David, Mephibosheth, Kingship, Absalom, and all the politics of David's reign on the throne. I've come to know figures like Samuel, Saul, Gideon, Samson, Deborah, and others. I've seen stories of the Israelites being united by leaders and judges, and made to be led astray. I've read the New Testament, the gospels, the acts of the apostles, the letters to the churches, Hebrews, James, and the book of Revelation.
All of these books tell me God is Good, God is eternal, Jesus is LORD, salvation is present, the holy spirit is alive and thriving...and I'm in process of seeking it, regardless of how I feel. But enough is enough, I suppose.
The answer is simple: Do I live for God, or live for self? Do I seek power, wealth, and influence, or do I seek God's will for my life?
...God has worked miracles, but I cant see them work in my life. I wanted to see if it worked in others, but from the looks of it, simply put:
It is what it is. I cant push on this subject without shaking the grounds. I'll resolve it in chatroom. Sorry.