Thanks, I guess you have a point here.
But tell me, why is God so ignorant when I was asking for help to forget and not care about him. I really did for a long time and still do.
God is not ignorant, nor does God ignore those who follow Him.
God knows what you need better than you do, because He already knows what's in your future. To Him, it's already happened. Our tiny, limited, human minds can only see our past, and we really do not have any concept of the BIG PICTURE, where He sees all things, beginning to end, at once. God knows what you need, and if He doesn't give you what you've asked for, then there is a reason for it. You may not see that reason now, tomorrow, maybe not even in ten years...and while that is little comfort to you at this very moment, it requires YOU to truly have FAITH in His plans for you.
Why did God put me in the middle of a family who lost their father suddenly and inconveniently due to a stroke? Why did He place me in a house full of grieving, crying women, which still ranks as the second most painful moment in my life? So that when my best friend died suddenly and unexpectedly three years later, I was better equipped to handle the grieving process myself, and better equipped to help his family cope with their grief. So that, over seven years later, when a young lady lost her mother to cancer, I could be there for her to answer her questions, and to help her cope, and push her to move forward.
Do you think I could see those things seven years ago, when I sat, helpless, among a wailing wife and two wailing daughters (who aren't even a part of my life anymore), overwhelmed by everything around me? Do you think I had ANY clue why God would put me there, seven years ago?
God knows what you're dealing with; He's not ignorant of it. You don't get to stomp your foot and whine at Him like a department store Santa Claus who won't give you what you want. Often times, the best thing He can do is NOT give us what we ask for, because HE knows what we NEED, because HE is the Father, and He knows better than us.
Read your Word, pray, and weather your trial. He is always preparing you for the moment you didn't know was coming.